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Glad I watched Delicatessen

2010-10-02T05:09:00.001+08:00

(It's my very first post)

Am left with only 3 months before my attachment ends.

One word LOST

One feeling CONFUSED

One aim FUTURE

Where shall i begin? Wait. How shall i begin?!! No, no. WHAT shall i begin?!!!

Am lost and confused and it involve my future.

After watching Delicatessen for the very first time (episode 3, repeat version)..am super impressed and wowwed with the storyline of the cooking show + drama. Wished I could watch from the beginning.

Somehow it does relate to my life especially right now. But, of course!!! A lil bit different situation. He have the luxurious kitchen to experiment things unlike me, which I wish hard I could have them some day. Also he have a family business that involve running a restaurant unlike, again, me... I have nothing!! Z.E.R.O

No related background and definitely am the only one who love this and going for it with all my heart. I have no regrets about this. There's always something difference in every family.

I envy the strong compassion he is working out and amazingly we share the same love-for the stars and we believe reaching for it, is the key to success.

Unlike me, although i've been collecting "glow in the dark" stars for several years back, i only keep them in boxes and bottles.

But for him, he pasted onto the ceiling walls and gaze them each night making them "sebagai perangsang dalam hidup untuk maju" I too, wanted to do that so badly but, nevermind.. It simply hard to explain. I am really not sure when will this family gonna move out to a new home, new life, new environment....

Home? Family? House? All these does matter to my future. But as I mention earlier.. Where. How. What am I gonna start with?...is the biggest challenge in my life.

*Life is just confusing

Ps- For now, I could only gaze the real stars when am being asked out by friends once in a while.. Wish i could gaze them in my room too,everyday...

Star Missy

2009-11-02T00:17:00.001+08:00

Star light star bright,

The first star I see tonight,

I wish I may, I wish I might,

Have the wish I wish tonight.

Star Gazing moments is bein missed!!!!

dear diary

2009-08-02T16:36:00.002+08:00

Dear diary,

u sound pretty lonely
and i noe i've not been a good blogger to u
and am so sorry.
really i do.

there is so much things that i wanna share
but it seem i dun have much time to sit down to share it with u
too many joy
so many hopes
so much tears of sadness
not forgettin happy times too

i shud not have to blame the time
i shudnt be blaming the resources that am lacking too
maybe am just not a good blogger
but how i wish i have a lappy of my own now
to share those moments with u... my blog

Visitin doc when am not sick

2009-07-17T14:36:00.001+08:00

Searchin for Satriyo

2009-07-16T04:32:00.001+08:00

Missin Swissotel moments!

2009-07-15T04:30:00.000+08:00

The blog has missed out lotsa of things! Really!

2009-07-13T04:28:00.000+08:00

He's gone. He's now gone... Forever..

2009-05-08T23:31:00.001+08:00

its not just a black bird Part2

2009-05-08T11:03:00.002+08:00

Yest, before I visit atok
was suppose to favour Man to teach me Food cost
but in the end
it was a sharing session for us
its not just a sharing session
but it was an eye-opening
yet a heart-pain incident..

he told me bout
black birds surrounded him for 3 weeks
just before his granny passed away
he told me it wasnt any black bird
its the burung gagak
hearing that
my eyes was in the pool of tears..
yar, Man was shocked
so I was tellin him dat wed mornin
bout my face was almost bein hit by black bird
and da nite b4 (tues nite)
Mak Munah called home
askin abah to visit atok..
coz atok doesnt wanna eat and he's not talkin anymore

when i visit atok yest,
i can see dat he may be not long
but everytime i thought bout dat
i will try to put dat feelin away
and tell myself nothin will happen
the aunts was tellin
that abah said we have to just wait for his time to come..
i just cant stop cryin
even when i was odw to school just now
i shed tears on the train
i did not want to study for test
2 papers lagik
i told workplace i dun have the heart to work this weekend
its just my heart its not controllable anymore

i told ibu bout what i experience
bout the black bird
and it happened before to a fren
and ibu said..
those abah's jemaah too
receive somekind of heart feelings and instinct bout atok

i just can't take this anymore
seriously am not prepared.
thanx Man for calming me down
but I cant
*I still wanna cry..

that fate has come again

2009-05-08T10:31:00.003+08:00

last tuesday
while having break the guys was questionin stuff
regarding love life
their views of knowing i've been out wit this wsc guy
who already i treat him like my own brother..
and 'sally' tellin them he saw me and Zul together
(like so?! just mam and jalan2 je pe)
no harm pe bein friends.

they also asked how many ex'es i had
what type of guy i prefer..
the build, the looks and stuff
so kay-po
well i dun mind sharing
coz they said maybe they can look out for me
haks.. like real only.. i just don't care
and more like.. why gurls always 'mrajuk'
why gurls always tells lies to their partner and stuff like dat..
well, some i really dunno
coz i've never had those experience
but at least i still gave them my point of view
so yar..

on the way home aft classes
i head to causeway point as usual to get important stuff
like stationeries and stuff.
aft that on my way back..
i saw few insurance agents outside causeway and i was trying
to figure out which company they were from
and i saw one of their files
it stated Prudential.
so i looked around
and to my surprise.. that guy i met
way back months ago at pasir ris was there again?!
well i was kinda happy uh..
coz i did mention in my previous post that
IF i were to meet him again..
there could be a fate..
coz this time.
its not the first like at cck
and not just 2nd at Pasir ris
but now again?

i msg shaf regardin whom i saw
and she replied..
"agaknye jodoh kau dgn de tak?"
haix..
padehal, when we were on train together..
we were dicussin what the guys was questionin me earlier
and shaf was tellin me.. its okay
and u'll find ur Mr Right someday..

but i just dunwan to meet my Mr Right
during saddening period like.. hmm
i have a wish u see..
i have missed the opportunity of showing him-who? to nenek
and now nenek has gone
and i really want the opportunity of showing
that him-who? to atok (my only grandparent left)
but i guess
everythin will be too late
coz i will never have that opportunity again
i know i wont
coz what happen lately
is so in front of my own eyes..
i cant push or pull the time again
searchin for him-who?
and hoping i can show that him-who?..
to someone whom is the only grandparent

so..
what the point?
well, its just my 'niat' or 'will' u see..

*but i know its too late for now..
*its really too late
*coz it seems he cannot be saved anymore

its not just a black bird Part1

2009-05-08T10:21:00.003+08:00

it was the crow
(if the english term is correct uh)
in other words "burung gagak"
i was on the way home from work
yest wednesday mornin
was heading the bustop
when suddenly this black bird
flew right in front of me
and i swear my face really hit it..
i messaged bro bestie regardin that incident
tellin him like so.. wth!
and den he joke with me that
i may turn into birdwoman..
and den i laughed away..

ku akui kelamahan diri

ku insafi kekurangan ini

*its not the end yet

I wanna move out!! coz each day is like bein stabbed hard wit a sharp knife in the heart, and definitely am tired

2009-05-07T01:20:00.001+08:00

at times...

i feel like leaving home

and stay by myself

its just too painful

coz it really annoys

cinta ini, membunuhku

* it's nothin, just siblings business

stop the tearin uh

2009-04-17T23:53:00.003+08:00

i shed when mummy told me atok wasnt feelin well

when i was odw to visit him aft skool

atok was admitted in the hosp by then

rushed to Changi hosp

met aunts n uncle ther

i really need to be strong

thank god he's okie

but i heard he cant move since mornin

de aunts predicted he fractured his back

coz he fell aft he walked out from the toilet

thats why he was sent to hosp

i felt kinda regret

exactly almost a week ago

when i accompany mummy to mwti

we drop by at the new tamp 1 b4 we went home

i sounded to mummy i felt like visitin atok

but mummy advised not to

coz she knew i was tired

as i was workin the nite b4..

i shud have not listened to mummy

and went to visit atok

and now..

am not sure wheda i can see atok walks like b4

all i can do is pray dat atok recovers fast!

he's in his 90s now

and i really wanna see him as long as i could

he is the only grandparent whom i love most left in this world

stay healthy atok!

be strong adek..!

*visitin Changi hosp reminds me of late nenek..

with attitude : upset depressed

2009-04-16T00:33:00.002+08:00

am tired!

tired of showin off my temper

to anyone to everyone

control eh adek.., please

coz showin anger, kills!

killin means emotionally stress

stresed up equals depressed

leadin to tears..

idiot!

whose fault was it actually?

those who made me angry

or was i the one who is emotionally uncontrollable?!

help..

*coz am really stressly depressin tired..

Ain't funny on april fool

2009-04-01T23:06:00.004+08:00

April fool prank
lil bro zul was askin how's the orientation
when he suddenly pranked on me!
he told that he met an accident
but before he could reply me anythin
after askin him.. 'serious?!'
i shoot him another sms..
"dont tell me its one of ur stupid april fool joke"
and yeah lor..
he replied somethin like...
when he had that accident
it sound somethin like.. 'APRILFOOL'
erghh idiot..
and i replied him off sayin..
"well, foolin bout accident is so not funny lor"

Dinner with the brothers
and yeah so aft that i head to Jalan Kayu
t have dinner wit my close brothers..
Bro Keem and Bro Faz
heh
waited for bro Faz till almost 2030
erm yar late as usual..
(time arab konon..)
well eirto called it as time Jepun!
haha..
dinner that nite was very fun indeed
food wise wasnt that great..
yea well i knew lar
bro Keem emphasized me to cook at first.
but heck.. i wanna have my rest away from stove
next time okie bro.
the night ended kinda late
wit many things and jokes shared among us
was just hopin that it would not end
haha
we left bout almost 2300
and took a slow stroll to the bustp
while gazin at the beautiful stars.. heh..
(sempat... -.-)

after dinner, back to replyin Zul's hangin message
he invited me to watch movie marathon wit his friends
kinda honoured..
mak ai those goin he told me was about almost to 20!
erm.. takpe uh ramai sgtkan..
haha, eir segan!
and den he told me somethin..
"sis, this time its not a joke! he really met an accident. now in hospital!"
so i go like.. wth!!!
crashed his sis back car at BKE
so i called him..
he sounded stress and hell yeah!
tu lar memainkan orang lagi..
and oopsy.
was it part of my fault too?!
coz earlier after he pranked me..
i said somethin like..
"accident wise should not be made as a joke"
haix
then, he storied the family was naggin on him
after that, they laughed at him..
so funny plak..
kwang3

so people
i did not expect at this 21st age
someone can still played a prank on me uh
but the worst part was...
when that joke became a reality!
so guys,
next time think again what do u wanna prank on kie.

exam week

2009-03-24T22:41:00.003+08:00

haha

eir visitin libraries and

McD again..

the exam period routines..

to study..

wher else if not these places

again n again

wakaka

only left with the other one those nite routines..

which is..

eir miss to gaze the stars so much

when eir, when?..

* stuck wit this song from sinetron Suci

tittled Rahasia Indah

projectloads over; put things behind and start afresh

2009-03-22T17:31:00.004+08:00

its been a very tensed weeksince 2 weeks ago.
submission deadlines
and presentation preparation
and finally its O-VER!
ouh yeah

sorry guys..
if i have been a big bastard annoying super nanny!
and i wanna mention here again..
am NOT the team leader kie.
am just trying to get everyone do things fast and be get it on time
coz i really do not want to do things last minute
making myself stress or even turning up late again for classes.
haha

and yeah.
after 3 months bein in shatec
only on the 10th week
was my first time taking a pix of myself in the chef uni
hehe
so funny been taking photos of the food that i cooked
but forgot to take my ownself
hua hua hua
(well dats probably coz i dont wear tudung during pracs only put it on during my presentation for foods)
so i dun want to take pix of myself=))
heh.

it could be a fate

2009-03-18T10:59:00.002+08:00

met this guy last year

i remembered clearly it was 28th Dec

he approached me askin am i workin or not

well, he was some kind from an insurance company

i was running away from him

coz i was rushin to the ladies

so he asked what's the rush?

am not gonna eat u up

so okie, i stop tryin to be entertained

and managed to peep at his showcase

okie he's from Prudential

so I said am workin but will be schoolin soon.

then i add on, i just joined an insurance with Prudential on the earlier month

when this Singpost had their roadshow at Sengkang.

Yet its under Prudential.

so he asked again,

what insurance is that that i joined.

so i was fumblin sayin its a kind of health plus saving insurance.

and he goes..

ouh.. PruCash?!

den I.. like.. yurhh..

and till then I remember what insurance actually i had taken up.

haha

so last sunday,

after me n mum went expo for maulid

and had meals at eighteen chef together wit sis

we alight at pasir ris to catch our bus home

i was walkin super slow while lookin at stuff ard the shops..

leavin sis n mum away

the i stopped at bubble tea shop to buy a drink

and while was searchin for mum n sis,

i saw a group of people

one on the left and the other on the right.

and from far, i saw this man from the right group in white was lookin towards me..

tersengih kambing as if am his next target customer

after i took my drink and was walkin at the left path

and that man from right really come to me and wanted to introduce me somethin i guess.

but before he could say anythin..

i shoot him back!

haha

"CCK?! Prudential?!"

then he wierdly asked me..

who are you? what ur name?!

so i went.. I-ra..

he said Ira mane??

den i replied Ira bukan sape2

haha

den he just ask me with question..

"okay did I approach u before?"

and replied saying I did.. and told him was at CCK..

he told it was sometime ago

and cant believe i could remember.. haha

well, then he went on with his question..

wat u doin now?

i told him am schoolin.. den he asked again..

last time u said u was workin rite..

haha.. den he asked again wher am schoolin n such..

and told shatec ther's allowance rite?

and i told him yea but only on my 2nd year.

so after that bla lar lar...

before i went off he said wher am I from?

kenduri?! den I said nolar

and was I alone..

I said i was wit mum.

den he end it with..

okay kirim salam same ur mum..

haha.. (cam kenal jek)

lol

so yeah..

met him in two different place

like really hujung tanjung sei..

kan? kan..?

he's handsome but not cute

he seems friendly.

ade goaty lagik!

haha eir kan suke yang ade goaty

first look cam budak baik

am sure he is in his 25++ hmmm.

(macam budak from madrasah kind pun ade)

haix if i were to meet him again..

kan best..

haha

what an ending week.

=))

start of so stressful.. end up got a smile for myself

hee..

gatal eh eir..

only if to meet him again..

well it could be a fate okie.

lol

(well eir mepek jek nie)

disaat cinta tercipta

semestinya aku merasa

its been a blardy week

2009-03-16T13:43:00.002+08:00

am in total pissed throughout the week

stressed tensed tired crankied had enough!!!

birthday to eirto is a real taboo!

lucky my blurpday day last week was acceptionally fine

but da whole week after that was totally chaotic.

i really dun understand.

am not the leader afterall..

yet everytime am like one.

why?!

Part One

did my group member know that i actually did not slept the whole of sunday nite
and straight went to skool next mornin for my hostin test
its super great that u guys had urs last week
so the unlucky one
me panickinly come to school and be the responsible one to hand up the project.
having-to complete what is not my part..
started and finished up the slides solo-ly
waited online just to kana bein bubbled
and none had told me their wherabouts
hel-lo seriously what the use of having hand-phone?!
then aft my test..
there u come smsin askin me what is required to be done
also tellin me that bro kept his lap-top in the room wher the gf is inside in the room.
seriously i dun care wth u talkin about
coz i've been tired all nite doin things myself!
so that afternoon without sleep i have to work
and yeah next day i overslept!
and late for adrian's class
weeeeeeeeeewoot! wth

Part Twoo

and becoz of last week's class behaviour it affect the whole us.
and for the first time i had to face the wall.
and be punished for bein late.
well its partly my fault for wakin up late.
well rite.. actually i did not wake up late okie..
i woke up almost 6.
but eventually aft work last nite
eirto cant tahan
but she have english presentation to prepare and a recipe to complete.
so she tried to get ecki to wake her up ard 230
she did called up to eigh-teen times but eirto never wakes up
till her alarms went off in the mornin
and she start panickin a-gain!
its a pair job but she end up doin herself
well she did help on the prepation at her place last week
but typin wise i have to do it myself?
she just came back in the mornin from holiday
end up she overslept and did not turn up.
even presentation slides i have to do it and present it my-self!
worst part i ignored my hosting project
coz i had to complete english
making my host group member pissed
forgettin to meet him and give my part
(which eventually i never done it yet)
so i msged and apologised to him, david
and promised to be online during nite
after completin my part and sent to him
he thanked me
and said lucky in the group he had me around
coz he knows the others confirmed hopeless..

Part thre3

and yar..
wednesday its jovert last day workin
before he returns to philipines.
a good friendship was bein cherish wit me and him while he was here
and am always happy when i got to work wit him
and he is just my best laughin partner at work
(beside my dearly Nad, sis)
so eirto favours Jovert to wake me up at 330 for the very last time
coz eirto decided to prepare a special dish for him.
and i actually prepared linguine wit prawns for him
and reached =) b4 7 in the morn
i feel very sad he had to leave
just like other attachment trainees who come and left.
i missed that moment durin with chris last time..
and i feel that i cant afford not to make somethin for jovert this time.
but am actually more of grateful that i did to jovert than chris.
coz am just afraid that he would think that am givin hope to him when am actually did not feel anythin..
for jovert am grateful that friendship occurs between us.
so aft he ate the dish i brought and prepared.
sent him off.. feel like cryin sei.
"macam matair nak tinggalkan kte"
padehal cume teman kie..

Part Four

so aft that i decided to go shaf place as bein requested
that i wanna drop by for restin
plus coz not enough sleep..
kebetulan class starts later due to no practical..
i called her up saying that am on my way
she said okie, come
and when i reach i msged her she did not replied.
called her twice no answered.
and 'ding-dong' her home also nobody answered.
so i was pissed of and den left ahead for school.
(only if i knew that would hapened i would have gone straight to school without singgah eh)
waste my transport only.
she called several times and i just ignored away.
and when she reach skool
she said "merajuk uh tuhh.. sorry uh tgh mandi pe"
well i know it was partly my fault for not waitin.
but i just dun wanna give damn anymore u see..

after class, my hostin members gathered for discussion

Part Five

and we took picures ard the skool.
see how it goes..
so at nite i have to gather updated points from members and add in into slides.
then send to fredrick for grammar checkin.but eventually i end up sendin him a blank attachment!
s-way me!
only figured it out on thurs during class when fred told me bout it.
hmphhh.. T.T
and yar..
moreover am workin
how am gonna send it to him..
dead eirtoi cant just let him wait for me till midnite to receive it u see..
so i send to luqmn via bluetooth
hopin that he could help me..
then end up..
something big again happen
he accidentally delete that file!
i cant focused at work
end up i have to surrender my password to him coz i have an ori copy sent by david
so yeah, i did manage still to transfer the file to him for checkin
aft i got home from work
straight to lappie to check if fred had sent me the file back

he did but again eir was to tired
but she has pictures and other photos to include in that presention
also an individual 250 essay
haiyo.. she slept first and requested syar world to wake her up coz she saw him online
he called me once but i did not woke up
but still did aft an early went off.
she spend her time finishin up her stuff and the clock reach almost 6
eir knows that its time to get ready for school
but then..

Part 7

she didn even realise she has fallen asleep
and only woke up at 730
eir really dunno wat to do.
been late almost in adrian class
and she cant aford to come late again for the 3rd time.
so yea.. for the first time ever she ponteng her class in shatec -.-
sobs.. coz got demo some more mahh

Part eight-finale

a lil thing to highlight
for hosting presentation,
i was more relax not really panickin coz the slides to present wasnt somethin new.
but somethin that use the mind to speak out
but yet during presentation
syar world spotted me 'menggeletar' and did not move an inch througout my presentation
haha
funny lar..
and after the presentation,
the mentor actually asked
among the 4 attributes bein discussed which one or more attributes were bein practice during th e process of completing this project.
fred unknowingly mentioned my name!
idiot. i did not expect that really..
he said somethin like..
"Irah actually did the extra mile of askin somebody to mail him the slides coz she's workin the day before"
Attributes shown : "Care n Concern"
hearing that i actually turn around to face the walls. haha.
paisei sia.. just feel weird how come he knew bout dat. lol..
well i did dat just to perfecto the slides u see..
but end up. i missed my class in the morning..
that is totally no good.
showed the C n C attributes..
yet am not showing professionalism.. -.-

please change, gotta change

2009-03-10T21:48:00.002+08:00

I've been attending adrian's class super late these days. Even 10-15mins of my normal lateness is already considered late,what more 30-40 mins late for since last friday and today he got so mad at 1st coz of the idiot 4 'mus-tars' (musquteers<- spellin error eh) that the whole class silly attitudes were bein pointed out which consists of punctualities.. He also pointed out that '08 april intake hosts are worried coz till up to date they have not get a place for their attachment. This is due to the bad recession in Singapore. And while on the home in MRT, i glanced at somebody newspaper that recession does not only occur here, but GLOBAL. That's seriously bad! Kitchen household and marketing are gettin higher but pay are being cut down not just that sadly some were being retrenched. Even gold jeweleries are damn expensive that it hit really high than usual rates (as bein told by sis Dee). haix, what is the world turning to?!

Okie, get back to class about this morning, eir was almost 40 mins late and met Harry along the way, whom is considered 'everyday starK'. It seems am turnin one just like him. eir, a person who loves the stars so much is turnin to 'star karatz' every now and then. ish. help help! ouh no!~ am suppose to buy an alarm clock in my way home just now but i simply forgot.. See!~ stupid forgetful eirto!~ haizx. and yar, what i wanna mention as i enter adrian's first class today.. i was sent to face the wall wit 4 other hosts. Really had shown a very bad impression of me towards chef. I was seriously shameful too. I awarded adrian a cookie o my birthday for appreciatin him bein part in my 21st life but at the same time 'slappin' him wit my bad attitude of coming late. I feel important to show appreciation towards other, yet I myself not appreciating towards my ownself, my own attitude and my own behaviour towards the passion am into. Dearest Jovert returning home to Philipines and I must highlight, he had help me a lot wake up call me in the morning and am gonna miss that real hard. ='( and gonna depend again on myown. Sometimes I need someone to push me than I will move. But till when should I acted on that. Am big enough to do things all bymelf.. Why am I still too dependable at most time.

So who's fault was it?! I had been ton-ning for the last few days to complete my Foods and then unpurposely neglecting other projects coz I was focused to one, end up making a bad impression of me towards the other team members of another project. I did not slept the whole of sunday nite for Foods while other members; one enjoying herself in KL and the other simply 'don't care' just because the computer is bein locked in brother's room wit the girlfriend. I was panickeing throughout the night and members ain't tellin me their whereabouts, bubbling me waiting for ghosts on the msn line. Hel-lo!!! What's the purpose of having hand-phone?!! eki is su-per true! maybe am bein too easily forgiven and understanding which end up sufferin myself! I was so tired last nite after work dat I can't even open my eyes. I asked a favour from her to call me at 230 am so dat I can complete my english presentation. She called. But apparently I did not wake up. I was only concious in front of my lappie at almost 6am in the mornin! Checked the phone.. received 18 misscalls from her and none of it waked me up?! See am tired. People around me was the one making myself stress and tired. Why things just got even worst when it was already real bad?! So I was panicking this morning completing my english report that I end up bein in school super late! Why not?!.. chef jacket have not been ironed, my clothes also not ironed and bag was not bein packed... And I have not complete my English slides when the presentation is right after adrian's class.

When will eir gonna change?!!

adrian is so true! He said to the class.. No point saying sorry to him but end up you repeat your mistakes again. I wasn't having intention to tell sorry to him but when he said that it somehow does move my thinkin that I myself won't be sure to will I change after the long lecture? Am I able to wake up early in the morning and got myself ready fast?!! See lar.. alarm clock can forget to buy. But I can still bought the sandal coz I remember I need one. But COULD NOT remember I need an alarm clock?!! really bad eirto..

BULLSHIT

2009-03-08T20:32:00.002+08:00

its BULL-SHIT!!!!

missin project members really

are KILLING me like hell.

we are 2 days late for submission

and they still DON'T CARE

this is what you guys called

PASSION?!!!

IDIOTlar..

am in Shatec for my PASSION!!!

and you guys are spoillin it okie!

i had enough of all this..

really kana BUBBLE!!!

and i shud have known..

been complainin to the wrong person..

who end up does not even give me the work for me to COLLATE!!!!

* how can i relax if things are goin wrong when it shud not be!!!!

somehow it does hurt

2009-03-08T01:10:00.006+08:00

it does feel hurt-ful
really it does
when the best and close ones
has actually forgotten
it does not applies to those that did not know
but surprisingly
some had surprised me
from those who just knew it
thanx lotsa

hmm.

but then
maybe i shud reflect myself
AGAIN
that
actually
am just
all

alone

in this earth
=(

*am just not important to any those whom i have regard as best and close ones.

** i guessed am bein too emotional

still bein celebrated

2009-03-06T23:46:00.008+08:00

so after eir teared

she spend 10 mins

celebratin her day

under the stars

gazin at how beautiful they were tonite..

just before she head home

accompanied by the moonlite

the family still celebrate eir birthday

thou its kinda late

but it is understandable

coz sis will only buy cake aft her work.

so eir had this one below.

a med black forest birthday cake

thanx sis

thanx family!

received birthday card from lil sis.

so chweettt.

but multiple spellin and grammar errors

but its okie.

its da tot dat counts.

after dat

had a redbull to energize herself

coz she have lotsa pix to scan

and project to hand in next day..

so yea birthday gurl cant sleep early!

bluek

final updates..

thanx to hengy dear, thav ma'am

eki dear, li wen dear, rauda dear

plus shuk dearest and jov dearest

for the last minute wishes!

and finally...
happy 21st birthday eirto-. Nur!!!!

*bro faz returns tml; march 7!!!

birthday to eirto is a self-reflection day

2009-03-06T21:40:00.005+08:00

so what if others feel special on their big day
and i did not
i had my day normal
just like any other days.
but really did not expect the whole class to know
and thanx so much for the birthday song
so sweet of you guys lar..
idiot me askin shaf to edit a sentence last nite
(which is now appear on the other post just before this)
and becoz of that shaf decided to see my Ic.
i was reluctant.
but she ransacked my bag.
fine!
gendeng.
i really need dat sentence not just to post it
but to give someone who really had made my 21st of life wonderful kie.
which include for all of my dear friends too..

well and i just knew dat yest also
falls on my other 2 classmates birthday.
not fair rite?
the others did not know so they dun wish them.
my kurt 17th n moon 19th
falls exactly just before mine
hmphh.
okie cut!

so eir was on the way home today
when it was maghrib
and was turnin on her mp3
decided to listen "taubat seorang hamba"
and suddenly she forgots
she actually turns 21st today.
so in the line while quein for 161
she wishes herself..
"happy birthday irah!"
and she cried
leavin her tears droppin on her cheeks.
she cried because at this age, she really need to reflect back on herself
what are the things that has been goin thru these years
and she's thankful that she is now in Shatec
pursuin her real dreams
and doin what she likes most.
=)
not just that.
another year older
it means responsibilities too is pillin up and tougher
the more she gets older
its like the more naughtier she has transformed
that is not what a servant shud do to his/her creator
so yup
eirto always wanted to change for the better.

first step!
she will follow abah for coming 'ratib'
on the coming of fortnight fri nite
hmmph

insya allah
we'll see!
and please irah!
never leaves her most important 5 times daily routine lar eh
haix
bad irah!

second step!
she wanna become an adventurous person rite?
so she has decided to join the guys and chef to play..
PAINT BALL

or chef called it as PAIN BALL during our upcomin holiday..
eir was the only lady who would be joinin as shaf is goin for sydney..
eir was da last to join in after da total was 19 people who wished to participate.
chef wants the participants to be 'genap'
so yea.. she decided to go for it!
and suddenly chef goes like.. "are you sure...?!"
wit his eyes big opened..
and she answered.. "why not?!"
=)) and chef smile off.. haks

last but not least.
so eirto would like to say
thanx to Jov, Nad n Kak Mandee for wishin
thanx to daya n dayah too
plus hafiz BAM and hengy
and also specially to my classmates.
thanx from the bottom of my heart
and yesh
eirto turns 21st today.
she's old really.
heh.

*hates her birthday

2009-03-06T00:03:00.008+08:00

but most importantly

dear loved ones

thanx for bein there on my 21st year

and making my life colourfully,

wonderful!!!

=))

*coz no one understands

many loves

eirto-. Nur

nothin but herself

2009-03-03T12:23:00.012+08:00

27 Random things bout eirto-.

1. She was once a lost girl who was uncertain and had an aimless Life ahead her. But now, she is one happy Shatekian host! =))

2. She hate quittin things half-way. =! That's her uh. Like... She still finished up her Diploma in Mobile & Wireless Computing thou she don't really like IT industry. wth. whateva; its done anyway.

3. She took up a Food Prep ITE Cert before entering Tp. Therefore she is now back into F n B industry to pursue her real dream! Wuhuhoo..

4. She often.. (maybe always) PROCASTINATE things thats why she end panicking at the very last minute and stressin up herself.

5. She often need a wake caller to wake her up in the morning not just for school but work too.. (bad huh) lol

6. She perspires lots! any time any occassion. be it when she's nervous, anxious, bein late for classes or even work.. That is most probably to her big size in person. =!

7. She is STILL a computer IDIOT at times thou she had attained a diploma in IT.. -.-"

8. She is one forgetful idiot! That's why she call myself; slow Learner! hua hua hua.

9. She can be SUPER slenger at times. its damn true! -.-"

10. She is still bein called 'adek' in the family thou she has 2 lil sister n a younger bro.

11. She prefer having the exact number of candles on her birthday cake rather than 2 big to refer as 20. But she will never like to blow them off, instead she will fan them away.. LAME! -.-"

12. She has fickled minded at times.

13. She has never drank Coffee Bean as to date and only drinks her 1st Starbucks when she was 19 back then. o.0 Also, she have not tried haagen daaz ice cream.. serious! so what anyway.. it does not matter.

14. She's not that adventourous lady but she does really hope she will be one.

15. she has been a Singlehood almost to her 21st year. But friends do come to her when they have relationship problems. hah.

16. She's big and ugly that no one will turn again for their second time. kwang3

17. Her nicks called by friends ; Rara, Bad as in 'Bard', Ira..

18. She cherish true friendship.

19. She is now damn busy with school and work that she does not even have time for family, friends and sometimes even herself. =! (dat's bad)

20. She misses her friends so much and hope to gather with them soon but when?! Her poly friends; daya aini fylo shad eki. Madrasah cliques; bro faz, bro keem, rauda, sue, fadh, nas, fiz, fiq, lihin, nisa. Best sis; Nad! Mandee! Kak Santi! Best Mar. Bestest Fisah! Bestie ai' !! haiyoo..

21. She really HATE the kind like him! ; craps like WORLD, gile pangkat! and Love desporados.. These people are just hypocrites..

22. She's not confident yet bein a speaker in front of a class. Presenting in front of a class of almost 40 is so huge and is like way back last 5 years (sec2) she faced those crowds to talk. (even a class in poly does not even exceed 25 students)

23. Really hate when she turn another year older. Not much of the age but the day when it comes.. Because its Bo-Ring!!! and will always make her mad unreasonably on that day.. dunno why lar.. she don't give a flying care.

24. Starting not to hope for Love anymore cause true Love will come when it is being destinied.. "Cinta tidak perlu dicari, Kerna ia akan datang sendiri?.."

25. She really wanna travel around the world and see things she has never seen before.

26. She loves bein loved by people and not having enemies surround her.

27. She envy the stars so much that she is sometimes one crazy person who will stare at the nite sky out of a sudden.

and that's her...; eirto! =))

am not a fighter yet

2009-02-25T14:43:00.005+08:00

yesterday,
in the eyes of chef
am not one yet
what went wrong
okie i do realise i do make mistakes..
yest test
only my salsa failed
the salsa does NOT even have the tomato taste
i know somethin somewhere went wrong
my first trial was perfect..
but why it fail again durin test?
(like my steam fish during prev test)
it was so perfect during practice.
but fail during test..
haix

but what make another two has upgraded & improved themself
to become better
and fighter in the eyes of chef..?
each time during practicals..
when my end product was bein pointed as good or even top 3..
but wat still make me not a fighter yet?!
iszit because am a lady?!
i dun wanna be rated different from men.
to me, when chef announced that he wanna rate gurls just among gurls
and guys among guys...
i really feel disheartened.

but i guess i have to understand
guys are guys
and gurls will still be gurls..
we are different in many ways..
there's only 4 gurls of us in the class.
and that is not the competition i want
i really want to be rated as equal as the guys..

well eirto-.!! look ahead okie..
maybe it could be...
i have been always taking time to prepare my end product?!
or.. chef sees that am still not comfortable wit my own station?!
hmm.. what?
i dunno..

well, luqman really feel disheartened.
he showed it!
i did feel too at first..
but i just dun wanna show it..
coz i know i have to figure out..
what is dat still missin in me..
that i have not shine out yet..
hmm..

*maybe my discipline?! PUNCTUALITYwise?!
**plus each test have to be perfecto and not just practical...
***haixx

so, i was just a bet

2009-02-23T01:44:00.002+08:00

saw that title
yup i just knew it
okie fine whateva it is
guys are just sluts
oOpsy readers
i mean he is a big jerk!!!

so wat... if the feelings and the seriousness comes later after that bet
but still!
i was put to bet?!
idiot!!!!

and thank god the relationship was never yet started
and thanx to myself that i had been distancin away from him
for several weeks
and thou he realized i have actually keepin myself away
i should have known it earlier
and kept myself away far earlier from him long ago
bcoz i feel that he's too desperado
am like not even say yesh
but he is already 'over' (durin thinkin n tots) than i tot...
well, am really regret for callin him dear and givin dat hope to him
but thank god i did not said yesh in the first place!
fuhh..

a guy wit split personalities
say bout something this and another thing dat.
i guess he was also lying bout his background!
telling nad de anak dato' uh, owns a pub uh..
and wit me he said his dad was comp part exporter wateva shit..
his dad lost 8 million last year due to economy uh..
and if u're dat rich why did u still come to here to work?!
work in =) lagik?!
nad kate.. background cam org kaye.
uh abih duduk sini bayar api air pakai PAYU kape?!
tuhh name nye bebual WORLD mangkuk!

i really thank myself for not gettin to fall deep for him
ever since i started my school i really kept myself away from work
penah uh dok.
skool 6 days per week u noe
but its okie am havin fun as i mentioned earlier
*wink wink
and again am lucky dat i did not tell him much bout myself
my background, which school am in and even wat course am takin.
so at least its not dat difficult for me to get over wit him yea
dat feelings had already vanished even before i know bout the true of his real approach for me

slut! jerk! desporado!
earlier when he asked me..
" dah sampai rumah ke, what u doing?"
and i replied.. " its for me to know and not for you to concern!"
itu pun tak paham bahase
english pun fail camne nak kahwin ngn org sini..
kahwin dgn jenis kau sudah eh.
dah lah pemalas suke buli org
jangan harap org sini nak kau.. ntah2 org kau sane pun tanak kau jadi laki!
pepandai je eh bilang jovert kte dah together
when we are not...
meraban nye anak!
bilang nad nape eh irah asyik senyap je.. (eh aku nye pasal lar kan)
" aku btul sayang kat de.. " (sayang konon! pegidah)
"aku takut uh de reject aku.. (aku mmg tanak kau pun) aku tengok de kuat agama tak macam korang lain"(ouh yea)
"lau korang mesti tak kisah aku convert ke tak, mak aku dah lar tak bagi convert camne eh? (tuhh kau nye pasal uh)
............
ouh pandai eh cakap pasal convert smue, sayang konon.. org lain smue are attached and married tinggal irah serong je eh.. so since kakyu kate de cabar kau pikat ira to prove dat kononnye kau anak jantan huh... skrg si fana yg mmg dah ade matair yang still kau attack just bcoz aku dah malas nak layan kau.. btul2 crocodile eh... kakyu plak pandai eh suggest org dah tuhh dat time bleh bilang irah.. "dah lah irah amik je de" wat da toOt!!...

and now u're playin fire wit fana(already attached) when u urself still confronted wit nad bout me. see! guys are keberets.. i hate his type! and i've never tot his kind will approach me first. (when i actually prefer another kind) tuhh uh dat time jason ade tanak chris ke... kwang3. hitam jugak yang dtg..well indeed its a good experience for me not to accept one unless u noe him very well. i did a good move but still a lil regret when i feel dat i've given a lil hope dat he think i've fallen deep for him..

and yeah again.. wit no soulmate yet : am still a happy eirto-.
=))

no soulmate yet = still a happy eirto-.

2009-02-20T00:03:00.003+08:00

Bro, I may be the last one to know it.
but, I must say..
Its not too late to end it
and not too late too to start/restart a new one too.
things may get better somehow someday
and every situation that happens in life tuhan gave us..
may come wit a reason.
we human still doesn know how's life will be next.
and we just have to continue life till the fullest.
(i know u have always been)
things occur may somehow benefits both parties or maybe it doesnt
but whatever it is,
hopefully friendship btw us all will never apart from each other.
(including u and her, me and u both, us and others too..)
Insya allah.

thou am still surprised wit bro's break up thingy but somehow.. that's life.
the most scariest thing to start a relationship is..
an unwanted ending.
i may not have the experience at all yet.
but i can feel how both parties felt.
thou everything has come to an end,
eirto-. as a fren will always pray for her frens better life ahead.
okie =]

well..
this eirto has love upon her already.
making him waited close to 3 months
but seriously i don't give a damn
coz seriously i don't want him anymore.
hey, am not bad okie.
but i guess he is seriously not a good start for me.
but again the problem is...
when am gonna turn him down?!
seriuosly a big LOL
i have always wanted to tell him off
but its just that i dun wanna think bout it coz am havin fun with my own life u see
seriously its my school suite.
well, as much as i really one to have a soulmate b4 i turn 21st
it doesn't matter to me anymore.
celebratin valentine last saturday by distributing famous amos cookies had me feel happy.
love is about sharing and giving rite.
thou i do not have one.
so why not i celebrate wit my best Shatekian hosts(grp 2)
i still feel the love surround me.
they are another best group of mates in my life
coz basically we all share the same passion!
and am obviously happy because..
am starting to live my 21st of life meaningfully..

Dear Allah, thanx for giving me the opporuntity, to live my life to the fullest, thou I know I am not bein a good servant as always as of yet. (bad eirto-.) =!

* he's not my type!!!

chef: wher's my five stars and a crescent?!

2009-02-19T02:37:00.000+08:00

chef, jangan merajuk eh

2009-02-19T02:36:00.003+08:00

okie it was valentines' last saturday
so happy belated valentine everyone
=))

since i ordered a black canister of famous amos cookies from sis last month
i decided not to eat dat 200g of butterscotch cookies alone
valentine is about sharing love wit the one u love rite
since am in the process of dietin
(which has not officially started yet =p)
i guess sharin it wit my peers its a great idea
*wink wink

hmm 200g of cookies = 38 Shatekian hosts
mane enough lar kan!!
so, i decided only to give my grp2 during practical IS group
and while chef was lecturin wit Jamie Mc outside aft we finish wit cookin
i took the opportunity went ard and distribute it.
wee.. they seemed to like them and some ask for more (bukan pepsi eh)
well, am kinda shy wit the chef and decided not to offer him..
bad or not?!
it wasnt my purposely attitude okie..
am just so afraid he would think i was tryin to 'carry' in another 'be nice'
like other guys always mention when Syar offer to buy a cup of coffee or tea...

so last tuesday aft our IS,
as i was moppin the floor askin everyone to leave "people! o-u-f OUT!"
this 4 guys was still taggin ard wit chef talkin bout stuff ape lar dey..
wastin my time u know..
then suddenly i heard dear Sammy mentionin bout.. famous amos n Ira..
so i turn ard and suddenly chef was pointin and said "how cud you"
"huh... so nice to others and not me?!.. u're always ask me what can i subsitute this and dat"
long long question dat i've always asked during lesson..
and i did not offered him even just one..
Ouh no.. chef..
... "majuk nampak, majuk nampak!"
well it wasnt my intention okie not to give him.. i just afraid aft i offer den he doesnt want how? paisei kan.. aiya.. wateva it is.. nie smue dear Sammy fault for tellin chef.. "Ira was so nice giving famos amos cookies to everyone during valentine!" wahpiang!? -.-
really dunno wher to hide my face okie.
so Johnston was curious and he asked what happened, den he commented..
"well, it is da tot that counts"

hmm, dats true. if i have the thinkin dat i just wanna share, its no harm others reject it unless only if you have tried to offer.. but still Ira already feels paisei worst felt bad coz chef dah merajuk.. well he' s a man am sure skejap je tuhh.. but still, Irah pun satu gendeng eh! =p

Her real Life startin s0on

2008-12-28T03:56:00.001+08:00

School!!!, here I am BACK!
weewiiittt!

No turning back anymore!
With full of guts and desire
am back for the 2nd time on their unexpected open house
Not just to clarify more doubts
I've gone through an unprepared interview
and I've made it!!!...
just ONCE, on my 1st ever trial
ouh yeah

Return ther again on my 3rd trip!
Finished up my lifetime savings for the fees.
(thou its not enough; thanx to daddy's bonus plus best bro uber kind help)
with a satisfyin heart and a smiley face
am now..
a Shatekian Host!
=))

*she herself can't believes that yet.

idiot eirto

2008-12-17T15:19:00.004+08:00

Enough of the mushy2 things in earlier post. Coz now it really involve my future. Haix. Again and again I got stuck. Days are numbered and still countin close the end. And I found out there's only one intake per year. Its closing soon I guessed. Suppose to drop Bukit Batok today. But am still uncertain and dat is why am holding back myself! After almost 5 months of uncertainity of my life. am still feelin uncertain wit not much survey and research. So i guess that is why am holdin myself back again. With no full support from everyone... Am still uncertain of myself to pursue my dreams.

Seriously...
Idiot eirto-.

But at least I did sent an email askin wheda there's vacancy for my last hope, before i did my final survey from others and confirm myself before I pursue another 3 years with a new learning experience and education that will secure my future.

Dear Allah, please give me another strength. The strength to continue my life and to finally secure my current and future situation that is so never endin at this moment.
Amin amin yaarabbal alamin...

*no words can describe how i feel for him rite now

Jangan lagi,

kau sesali keputusanku

Aku tak ingin

Kau semakin, akan terluka...

The Confession: Part Two

2008-12-15T14:15:00.001+08:00

Am not use to see dear in the eyes
Not even use to talk face to face wit him yet.
It is still a difficult decision to for me to make,
To accept dear in my life at this moment.

I think am startin to fall real deep for him
And I do hope what he meant is true,
that he is sincere towards me.

Dear Allah, please give me the strength to face each day wit dear.
Amin..
*Only the time and fate will decide us.

...Why do I keep running away from the truth?

All I ever think about is you

You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized

And I've just got to know...

the confession: part One

2008-12-12T01:42:00.002+08:00

Declared on the Phone
Close to 4am in the morn.
Erghhh... Pinch me! Pinch me?!

Whatever it is...
am not his yet.
Fullstop!

Aku cuba lupakan

Tapi ku tak terdaya kasih

Namun sayang yang hadir

Membawa sinar..

the question is "why me?!"

2008-12-10T01:15:00.001+08:00

Why me?!
Each time he tries to tell me somethin
I stop him and ignores..
Each time he calls me his 'syg'
i get mad and tell him to stop calling me that..

He has waited for me almost 1 month plus..
Just to get my phone number..
And in the end he finally took my number from the store..
After I jokingly said.. "u call me lar"
(regarding my mp3 i left in the store and there was customer he needs to handle)

He keep saying to me..
His heart is always bein left in the store in amk..
thou he is like the football bein kicked from another to the other..
His wifey is at amk..

Am i bein ego to guys?
For not giving them chances to win my heart..
Or am i bein 'stone' hearted?
For ignoring guys when they wanted to tell me somethin that comes from their heart?

Or am just not ready?
To let guys enter and melt my heart..
But til when must I continue bein likedat..
If I don't start now..

When will I have the chance to try somethin that i have longed wish for..
What am I still uncertain with?
Ahh.. Yesh...
The question from me to him is...
Why Me?!
But if I don't let him the chance...
To tell me somethin that he really wanna tell me..
When will I know rite?!
Stupid eirto-. !!!

And by giving him the chance to tell me what he wanna tell..
then i can ask him the question..
Why the me?! Rite?!
Haix, haix..
Its just a very difficult situation for me..
(When it doesn't look difficult at all)
Just to overcome that situation.. of? 'I wan 2 tell smth!!"
Idiot eirto-.!!!

These will never end..
Unless I sit down wit him and let him....
Tell what he wanna tell!~

...Harusnya takkan ku biarkan engkau pergi
Membuatku terpuruk rasa ingin mati...

Tarikh Keramatku

2008-11-30T23:24:00.003+08:00

Apa yang dimaksudkan Tarikh Keramat yang tertera di tajuk blog ku pada malam ini. Aku sesungguhnya ingin berkongsi dengan semua bahawasanya.. Aku telahpun meminta keredhaan daripada kedua ibu dan abah ku pada jam tepat 7:20 selepas waktu Maghrib diadakan secara berjemaah bersama adik-beradik ku. Untuk apa?.. kini aku dengan secara rasminya telahpun bergelar ”the new e-Business Entrepreneur”. (lihat profilku disebelah kanan) heh..

Walaupun pada dasarnya, gelaran itu telah ada padaku semenjak Raya yang lepas. Tetapi aku tidaklah berapa istiharkan pada semua. Kerana? Aku masih belum yakin apa yang telah aku ceburi pada mulanya. Hinggalah beberapa minggu selepas itu, (selepas menghadiri beberapa perbincangan dan seminar) aku yakin bahawa apa yang telahku ceburi adalah sangat tepat pemilihanku ini.

Dengan berbekalkan kad nama yang baru ku ambil dari Mak Long ku semalam serta ‘brochure’ yang telah hampir sebulan ku mencetaknya, lalu ku persembahkan kepada Abahku dan meminta agar abah doakan kejayaan adek yang sebelum ini pernah diberitahu oleh Mak Long bahawa abahku yakin aku tidak akan minat dengan bisnes yang akan diperkenalkan padaku sebelum aku menceburinya beberapa bulan yang lepas.

Kini dengan penuh keyakinan yang kental (walaupun masih berbekalkan sedikit rasa takut serta cemas) dengan tujuan yang satu; Aku Mahu Duit.. Untuk Diri Serta Dapat Membahagiakan Keluargaku.. Ya aku ingin berjaya dalam bisnes yang ku ceburi ini! Insya Allah aku boleh berjaya!

Aku telah berjanji dengan abahku juga.. “kalau dalam masa enam bulan adek tak buat duit, adek akan berhenti!” Tetapi ini tidak bermakna tanpa usaha aku mengharapkan duit dapat jatuh dari langit. Apa yang aku ceburi sesungguhnya bukan sama sekali skim cepat kaya, kalau beli loteri pun belum tentu boleh menang. Bisnes ini perlukan kesungguhan diri yang konsisten. Tanpa itu dalam masa enam bulan pun jangan harap boleh dapat satu sen! Macam apa yang ku alami selama ini, sudah menjadi ahli sejak Raya lepas, tapi mulut ini tidak berapa meyakinkan orang.. bagaimana orang mahu ambil tahu lebih lanjut bukan? Serta caraku yang macam endah tak endah untuk meyakinkan. Makanya, disebalik sikapku yang endah tidak endahku itu membuatkan diriku melepaskan peluang yang kadang-kala ada di hadapan mata. Bukannya apa, hatiku masih mengatakan belum boleh lagi untuk mula.. Tapi kini, semangatku kian membara.. dan aku berharap sangat agar diriku tidak patah semangat terlalu cepat ketika ini. Walaupun diriku tahu banyak rintangan, halangan serta kata2 orang yang akan melenyapkan misi pertamaku...

Fuhhlamak!!! eirto speaking malay uh.. amacam? how? very karatzx rite?.. anyway to those non-malay readers... I was saying that I have finally got the blessing from my parents to start with my new business.. called the e-marketing Business. Do spare me some of your time.. If you wanna know how to make fast money with easy, transparent and the honest way. Come to me, and I will try to convince you as much as possible. If you understand how the plan goes, you can easily make instant profits and cover the amount of you have invested in, in this Business. All the best to me! and to you too =)

aku ingin terbang dan menari

jauh indah di tempat kau berada...

Dilemma eirto

2008-11-30T23:14:00.002+08:00

To accept or not to accept?..
But firstly.. the question arise shud be..
To give or not to give?..
Well my hp number can be found everywher in the store sei.. Is up to him to take it or not..Okielar, it is so respectful of him towards me..Thou i ignored when my number is bein asked..he still doesn't steal my number from the schedule.. So good of him eh..is he?.. hmm.. I think its been 3 weeks we met during changin of shifts..
he kept irritated me by saying please please.. "kasi budak nie nye number blei?"
den he goes like "i bukan nak ur number tapi i nak the gurl yang dalam hp u tuhh"
well that gurl in my phone is obviously me lar.. Boo!
then..back to.."please ira, kasi number..."
keep repeatin n irritates me..say nice things like.. (nehmind let it be my secret)
ira this.. and ira that lar.. but
erm.. but he did mention..
he prefer malay gurls lar then his own race..
whateverlar..

so i went movie watchin wit akak, wirul n da bratz last wed.its Madagascar 2!!!the movie was suPer hilarious...but the stupid part was.. the hippo ends up bein together wit giraffe..i must say its not stupid actually.. but somehow that part actually 'sindir' me in a way..like.. the same kinds usually goes with the same kind..rite..somemore they are animals.. i guess in reality.. we will never see such things..but in human life?.. every human being is the same!wat makes us different is..the race and religion we have..

and well... every individual has his or her wants..like me and you..we would want some criteria to be in him or her.doesnt have to be handsome or cute. (lau dpt satu bonus lar)or doesnt have to intelligent or rich..rite.. (lau dpt nie pun satu bonus jugak lar)but him? of different race.. i would prefer the X than Y..am not bein a racists.. but its just preference.i would prefer to be friends with some species.. (species eh?)rather than havin relationsip with this species.i can see that he is a nice guy..but sometimes i think that he is too despo to have one..why that arises is because... the question is Why 'me'?Is it because am still and am the only solo gurl in the store.. (coz i must say others look much betta than me lar)that was why i have doubts on him..doubts that strongly tell me that..aft him knowing that the rest are all attached and married..that's why he come to disturb me..well am not there as a spare part u see..but well.. dat is only my point of view, at first..but after others told me.. that they thought he wasnt serious bout tacklin me and he actually did and keep on continue wit it..i guess he is serious?but seriously i dunno lar..

Bout dis guy kan..
Bile berbahase sebut u-i u-i!
Bile panggil.. *ehem, *ehem!,
aiyo so geli telinga i!
Menyampah btul cam nak kene trajang..

Minat pompuan mlayu uh..
Ira nie and Ira dat..
Whatever again okie..
Thou takde org pernah puji ira camtu..
So dont ever continue to make ira cair okiecoz susah lar ira nak fall for him.. and will never fall for *a at all.. Sorry skit dat will never happen!!!

Ouh ya.. no worries Daya.. our so called bet is still on. am sure am da one who will be treatin un not u treatin me.. Heh. I know lar lau ade jodoh tak ke mane kan. Heh. Tapi Ira pasti.. Dalam soal jodohpertemuan... u will have first before myself. Coz am still uncertain for myself to have one thou i do desire to have a soulmate.But its just not now and wont be dis soon.. Heh..

Jangan bilang tidak

Bila kita belum mencoba

Siapa yang tahu akan sama

Hatimu dan hatiku

eirto-aieto Diary! Chapter "School Returns"

2008-11-08T03:23:00.002+08:00

The picture explains everything to the Post title.. The two besties of Tp Graduant actually returns to school due to.. We mish the school cho much!!!! Were we? I did lar huh... But don't really know bout her.. But when we were there and was gossiping and recaping what were the things we had been doin in our 3 horigible?! years was indeed very much to be remain as good memories.. We were close during our 1st years but got somehow seperated in year 2 onwards.. I really need to catch up some of the things that we missed doin together.. But we got really close when it was near to end of the final semesters.. and we became much closer nowadays.. and I do realise too.. on how much time I have not been spendin wit her durin the mid years during Tp Life.. But since we got graduated.. We endlessly keep in touch with each other... Hope our friendship remains and no more 'halangan' will keep us apart okie.. Insya Allah...

Well i guess, eirto have not been a really good bestie to aieto.. I have actually forgotten bout her plans to visit the Changi Airport after we visit our school. Since it was my off day of the week.. and wanted to spend my time only wit bestie.. but the home = the kids and mum too mish me as well and wants me to spend my time with them.. haiyo.. bad eirto! sorry aieto

So bestie.. as I said before and mention again here..
am not the only a bestie eirto to bestie aieto..
but also a sister to lil bratzx..
a daughter to her parents..
the listenin ear to her colleagues
the friend to her madrasah cliques, best ghurlfrens and more
BUT i will always try to be ur bestest bestie!
heh

Selagi daya hatiku ini

Akan tetapku menyayangi..

Cikgu Nur's diary...

2008-11-07T03:46:00.001+08:00

Who would expect your childhood ambition would come true?What was your first ambition when you were young? Do you still remember?For boys, mostly they would dream of becoming a Policeman? Fireman? or maybe a Doctor? etc & etc..and as for girls.. maybe a Nurse? or a Teacher?!Yesh a Teacher.. My ambition when i was younger was to become a teacher..How about you? Have you achieved it?Unexpectedly.. I had become one!and maybe continue as one again.. and Yeash my students called me Cikgu Nur! heh (Cikgu Nur eh...)

Thanx to Bestest Fisah.xoxo
That unexpected opportunity was introduced by her..Why.. Because the newly wedd wasnt feelin good after her honeymoon. So she asked me if I could replace her on her second day onwards.And of coz I accept it.. Why again.. well its pretty much because of the money. heh..Earning 12 bucks per hour. And yar.. Its all about-The Money.. Who doesn't want.

I was known as 'eirto' or in short 'eir' by bloggers..
known as 'adek' and 'kakak' in the family.
a 'bestie' to her bestie..
Bein called 'Bad' as in pronouced as 'Bard' by best ghurlfrens
and known as Irah by most colleagues and friends..
and suddenly 'Cikgu Nur' hmm..
or maybe soon remain as 'sayang' by him.. Oops (need not know dat uh huh)
((Hushhh! Not so sOon bout that maybe not))

Okie back to Cikgu Nur's diary was about this eir has no teachin experience.never had become a tutor thou she feels like tryin one day..but if to recall.. she did buddy readin program durin her pri5.(and dat was close to a decade)okie whatever..I need to teach 2 class, 2 hours each to the Pri2 students of one of the neighbourhood school in tamp.Okie wait.. wat am i teaching? eager to know?its teaching Bahasa Melayu Pertuturan or "Malay Conversational Class"

wanna know bout eir's 1st day experience wit her class?!It was.. suPer rotten!! Coz eir doesn't know how to do class management.the student was suPer chaotic. maybe equals to this lousy Cikgu Nur. hah
but that doesn't mean I gave up on my very 1st teaching day..The 2nd topic for them that I need to continue with was 'Berkenalan' or 'Getting to Know Each Other'The 1st class 2/7 or 2Hope that I faced first in my life.. was kinda great..they seemed eager to learn the new language but I wasnt prepared to become a good teacher..I had problems handling the class when it was quiz session..When i picked up their hands to let them answer.. some students wasnt satisfied because they think i picked others than those who picked up their hands first. (stress kan.. hah)its all because of getting the 'bintang' stickers lar..coz i promise them who have the most stars by the end of the programme will receive a present..(haix.. kids.. who doesnt want present rite?!)

As for the 2nd class for that day.. I face 2/1 or 2Love.Fisah told me the students in this class all macam step pandai..but rupe-rupenye.. smue notorious! lau cite P Ramlee.. we say it as "macam setan!" hohit was much challengin wit this class, of cozwhen i was more prepared to teach the 2nd class.. the students were the ones who cant sit still..the girls were more eager than the boys..and most of the students did not want to take down notes unlike those from 2Hope.and when i test them, some almost got it rite.. but padan muke lar.. takmau copy kan.. korang nye pasal lar..kecik2 dah pandai cakap.. blei ingat dalam otak..

Day2. its about My family or "Keluarga Saya"I gave homework for them to do.. which is the family tree.Again the class wasnt much enthusiasm with my teaching.. it seem they prefer to play games than hear my teaching..even for singing they just wont want to sing unless i reward them wit somethin.. Ishh..

Day3. Suppose to be "Nombor, Tarikh dan Masa"Since it was my last day..I start of with 2Love recaping about the day before's lesson.asked the kids some vocabs..Taught them simple questions like "Apa itu?" & "Apa Ini?"then to make more interesting, i make the class split into 2 den make them sing!what song?!

"Ibu saya, Ibu saya

Dimana? Dimana?

Ibu ada disini, Ibu ada disini

Sembunyi! Sembunyi!"

Ouh.. Cikgu Nur was so touched that the class finally get together and put effort for the class participation.And it was almost the end of Bahasa pertuturan melayu for the 2Love.Aft 3 days with them, It was so stress handling them I must say.Students especially boys kept running about. Play fighting by using long rulers. A gurl, named Lydia was being sit separately from the groups.She was named 'elephant' thou she doesnt look like one. Aft some queries from Bestest Fisah. She was bein told that Lydia was called elephant bcoz she was bein chosen to become a volunteer during the school excursion to the Zoo..The class was so eager to know what is elephant called in malay.. Well I wanted to share with them at first, but other students told me to ignore them.Well I think I should follow what the girls said and I did.. If not it wont be a good tradition for Lydia to be called 'gajah' plak rite..

2Harapan:2Hope..My first and final class to be taught on my last day.Again start of with simple questions..Finish up few more slides I did not complete with regarding "Keluarga Saya" topic.and suddenly I had problems teachin when I translate the malay sentences word by word.The word 'seorang' which i told them refers to '1 person'The sentence was.. "Saya ada seorang kakak" which means "I have one sister" rite. But when I said 'seorang' means '1 person' they got really confused till i had to 'peng' them dat number 1 in malay is very unique!So I recap with dem bout numbers.. like for ten we call it sepuluh and not satu puluh. we can call satu ratus but more exact we call it seratus!From there I think they somehow understand..Padehal when I went home and consult with Bestest Fisah.. she told me we should not emphasize 'penjodoh bilangan' to students. hah.But that 'seorang' part.. ntahlar eh.. whether they finally understands at the end of my lesson or not.Ouh yeah i proceed the class to split into 2 again like ealier class. and make them sing.even before i teach the second line of the song.. they are eager to sing and somehow know how the song songs like. Easy kan. hahWith 2Hope I made the class more interesting by having a 'Guessing Game'.Who guess if I have 'kakak', 'abang', 'adik lelaki' and 'adik perempuan' will get 1 bintang for every correct answers.Well yeah.. I have all and showed them my family tree. and my souvenirs from the students I had was the family tress they made as their homework.. Touching kan..

I awarded 3 sweets each to everyone in 2Love at the end of the day and 2 notebooks to a gurl & a boy who received the most 'bintang'As for 2 Hope (which is my favourite class...) I gave a lollipop each to everyone anf also notebooks to the most attentive students in the class..Ending momments with 2Hope was much more proper and the moment I stepped out.. I feel like crying.. Coz they are my 1st and the last class I taught, gave the spontanious participation in class..Although I had difficulties with them on my first day.. But am glad I end the programme with them..And yar I managed to take their pictures too.. (Padehal, my teaching time dah overshot).. I went into the class again at the back door to take their pictures.. (Padehal teachernye ade di depan!)Kwang3..

And before this Cikgu Nur returns home.. She bought herself Honeydew Ice Blended with Pearls.. Ouhh... So coolin.. (Padehal she did bought one before goin school earlier..) Well what to say, the wheather was so hot.. But her throat was much thirsty that she need Icy drink! Icy Iced... See-> She's tired yet she still put on a smile.. (Padehal dalam otak de stress before her final class tau..

And seein this picture.. Ade orang plak yang terpikat sebab matenye besar.. Padehal mate eir bleh di catagorizekan sebagai sepet.. Well its all the camera trick.. Memang bute! agaknye si mamat tuhh...

Takdir, pertemukanku

Membuatkanku Jatuh Cinta

Restu Abah & Ibu

2008-11-06T22:05:00.003+08:00

The group meeting at Cikgu Salamah's house with the Makciks was kinda boring at first. But am glad I did attend cause at least I learn something, and more knowledge with these Makciks-Makciks sharing their thoughts and knowledge on how to succeed in the Business that I have been taken up. Yup, I did regret and sound frustrated at first.. as if I was being forced by my Mak Long to join the business she has been involved few months earlier than me. But, slowly after attending few seminar and talks, I must say that I am so thankful to Mak Long for introducing that business opportunity in my life. Okie when we say makciks-makciks doing business.. what will out mind think? okie let's put it straight.. It is MLM! So what?! Anyway if you think MLM is only meant for makcik-makcik.. You are so wrong!!... Am not the only youngest of Mak Long's downline.. Cikgu Salamah also has one young guy as her downline by the name of Zane(his nick)... Me and him may be the youngest and of the same age. But the fact is.. he is still much younger than me by months... Chiss! Okie that is not the point.

I have been a member since last Raye, but the truth is.. I am still not making money at all..(dah buang banyak duit adelah) I am still stuck with stuff that am still uncertain.. which makes me too afraid to start.. bad isn't it? During that meet up.. Cikgu Salamah actually shared that Zane wasn't making money too during his 1st 2 months since he joined (eh?).. but now.. he finally starting to earn somethin.. which actually did amaze me somehow..

During Cikgu Salamah's sharing, she did mention that... in this business or anything and everythin we do.. we have to get our parent's prayers and blessings.. Without these.. we, you, me as a child cannot go far.. even if you have tried so hard and still does not succeed in everything that you have been doing.. BLESSINGS is what you have been lacking of.. So what actually happens and made me shed lotsa tears was when.. Zane actually shared with us that last Raye, when he was asking forgiveness from his parents.. he actually asked blessings from his parents to pray for his success in this business.. somethin like " Doakan kejayaan Nal dalam bisnes nie, Lau Nal tak berjaya dalam masa 6 bulan, Nal akan berhenti" When I heard that.. only god knows how I feel.. =|..

If i were to recall.. and if you were to recall... when was the last thing you actually ask blessings from your parents... My answer will be.. that was almost 4 years back when I had just finish my O levels.. almost everything and anything that I have been doing since the last 4 years (or never had been asking their blessings), I did not ask or tell them.. a bad daughter indeed huh?! Not that they didnt know what I've been doing.. Its just that.. after I join or take part into somethin then they will know.. especially my dad.. I did not ask his approval before I did somethin.. but usually it will be after I took part into somethin that he will know about it.. One example that really shock me months back when my dad ask me, " Pernah tak anak abah tanya, samaada abah kasi korang kerja ke tidak?". That question was asked to me when I had joined =) for more than 2 years.. Okie maybe I did mention this in earlier post. But since Zane had shared with us how he finally get the enthusiasm to start doing the business which is by gettin blessings from his parents.. Thou I did heard from others that Zane's father actually wasn't happy at first with he first joined this business. Now that I realised that I have not been asking my parents blessings before doin somethin. (Exclude the motorbike part okie..) Mak Long told me last week dat abah wasnt happy when she sounded to him months ago, she wanted to introduce the so called 'MLM' business to me.. but unexpectedly I had become and am part of it and I have faith with it.. but one thing for sure.. true! I have not been earning from this business yet. But that doesn't mean am failing.. I think I just need some more time to know how to become a leader and talk like a leader.. Then I will put whole heartedly on it.. and also... after getting from my parents blessings.. and that will be soon from now.

Ai is rite too.. Now that I have realise what I have not been doing.. The best solution to get a smoother path in life is start doing what I am suPpose to do = ask for parent's *blessings.

People.. do not become like me okie? Start now, Before its too late..

ku cuba tanpamu disisi

ku cuba tanpa hidup denganmu

the stars are brilliant tonight!

2008-11-04T03:25:00.001+08:00

I really miss the sight of stars.

Those moments, when one of my best ghurlfren introduce to me the best view of night life. And I had been frequently went stars gazing during the first few months of the year when it was ending to school days.. For now, its been months since anyone ask me out for stars gazing and it has also been 3 months since i last work night shift.

So when finally I got the opportunity to work nights to get extra allowance, my intention wasn't to gaze at the stars of cause. My colleague and I was having our break and was 'lepak'ing outside the store... I was quite surprise when the stars above me was so brilliant that night. I just can't stop gazing them and how I wish I could lay down there and enjoy my view without having neck pains.. But passer by and patrons will think am I crazy or not rite?! So betta not to lay down.. Moreover that area is so dirty lar kan.. Suddenly I thought of this song.. Let's sing together okie? heh!

"Bintang Kecil di Langit yang Tinggi

Amat Banyak Menghias Angkasa

Aku Ingin Terbang dan Menari

Jauh Tinggi ke Tempat kau Berada"

"Little starts, In the sky high above

So many of you decorating the sky

I want to fly and dance

Far, far away to where you are"

Well, at this twentienth of age, I still wanna be that little star.. I wanna fly and dance, far, far away to where they are.. Am I being childish? No, I don't think I still am. I have always been a little star and so are you. But I have not become that little star who has been decorating the sky high above to where it has always been.. I have still not fly high, I have still not dance far... and I do hope one day I can be that shiny star like what most of my friends has become..

Dearest friends, do pray for my shining moments to shine. I hope one day, I'll become somebody, somebody that will shine bright like those in the sky and stay shiny in my parents heart. Amin...

Dapatkah aku memeluknya

Menjadikan *bintang di syurga

am tired of everythin

2008-11-02T04:13:00.001+08:00

yesh am tired

am suPerbly tired of everythin

am tired of earnin very few..

as little as lesser than 5 bucks per hour..

very little indeed huh..

am tired of abah tellin me not..

NOT to take my elder siblings as my role models...

(when i already know that)

am tired of wirul

takin my stuff without askin permission

makin me angry

and showin off my temper to him..

but still...

after shoutin & yellin..

he still doesnt change!..

am tired of abang's behaviour

tired of his behaviour...

which requires myself to control every single movements at home!

cannot watch tv at late nites

no shoutin (even if its not to him)

abide every single of his needs

worst.. no playing wit the lappie/net!

and because of him...

am tired of mummy not lettin me to work full time
even for a short while...
(until i return to school again next year)

because of him,

mummy can't send sis to school..

his behaviour that make ME have to send lil sis to school instead
then makin me turnin up late for work
and my boss will have to cut my pay!

WTH!~

am tired with the house..

still very messy

here and there...

not moving out...

am tired with the family members

who cant reunite at at all..

the family is going doomed

seriously..

it can fall apart anytime..

ku bukan robot

ku, ku bukan robot

the thing call *it

2008-10-25T03:00:00.005+08:00

each time i sees part of it
i'll start to tear away
each time i hold someone hand
and wanna talk about it
i'll start to fade away
each time i start thinkin about it
i can't stop lettin it fall again

everythin seems so troubled
everythin seems so not right
but yet
i have not met the right one
to let it all out at once

when will i find the one
when will everythin gonna be fine
coz i hate to face day after day
with no solution, with no end...

someone,
help me find my way
coz my journey actually..
has not even yet started as of today..

Derita yang mendera kapan akan berakhir

Hanya engkau yang mampu taklukkan hatiku

*no one knows

no one will understand

am the happy mankind

that no one will realize what's behind

Will there be readers after i went missing for so long. Hope not! hah Let my return not be known =!

2008-10-11T16:20:00.005+08:00

I'll be off for 2 days to KL for biz trip!~ Do not miss me people! LOL Not really biz trip. Its just a Hari Raya celebration for my biz members. Actually I don't really have that much money to really enjoy while over there. But I think I need to clear my piece of mind well. Just wanna leave the family awhile and get things off for a moment.

But I know, even when am back in Singapore tomorrow's nite, I have to face the reality and solve it myself. hell yeah!~

okie dearest friends... enjoy your weekends!~

muacks

KL!!! Here eirto-. comes again!!

kisah hidupku takkan ada sudahnya

hingga nafas terakhirku...

who's heart do i have to listen to?

2008-10-08T05:43:00.003+08:00

it does not matter how long eir has not been updating. yup she seriously knows that. need not remind her anymore. eir knows that. coz she just hate the sight of her old lappie. she needs to change to a new one.if eir were to buy a new red vaio right now. she simply can. yes eir can. (ahh! nie smue alasan semata-mata. padehal lappie masih elok lagi..kot?)

however her savings priority. is not meant for that. no NO! not for a new lappie. or even for her new business that she has already cipped in which cost almost 20% of her savings!.. no! its for her first wishList! which has been hanging for months. what else is she waiting for??? the oppoturtunity has once missed. and another opportunity is yet to come soon. but herself is not ready for it yet? due to fees? not yet enough? hmm.. nOpe! (tidak, tinggal lagi dua bulan eir still can and have time to save up! tapi belum tentu dapat cukup nanti, haix) solution: easy what?! find another better paid job lar. =X

no. that is not the only reason which is holding back in pursuing the first step of her dreams. she really wants to enrol into that academy so much. thou she had already found out that that there will be a new one soon for next year... eir just don't want that! get it?

kata orang tanpa restu, tiada guna diteruskan. like wanting to enrol a motorbike license. till now, she did not do it. why? she know her parents don't like it, so why should she continue with that. but now, the situation is different. kerna ia membabitkan masa depannya - keinginannya dalam hidup ini!

pada siapa lagi harusku tanya? sampai bila lagi harus ku menderita? dengan masalah lain yang sentiasa menimpa diriku.. apa akan jadi kesudahannya.. tiada guna terus berdoa, tiada guna ku terus berharap.. tanpa usaha mencari jawapannya.. hidupku tak akan ke mana.. haruskah aku mengikut kata hati?

kata teman, hidup ini harus ada pelbagai cita-cita. jangan sahaja setia pada yang satu. betulkah? memang benar, hidup ini tidak sentiasa sempurna. salah langkah, diri akan menderita...

tidak ku minta lahir ke dunia

tidak ku minta perjalanan hidup sebegini

eir

2008-05-17T20:48:00.004+08:00

eir has been suPerbly tired

but eir glad has finally

gotten her long rest today

and yar..

she dreamt of somethin

of someOne

tellin me...

erm..

eir thinks

eir has finally known the answer

the answer

to her doubt!

(okie wait not the doubt in eir's prev entry)

the doubt that

eir has been thinkin all these while

that

he is not meant for eir!

okie that enough bout the doubt thingy..

and yar

eir cant wait for tml!

my bestest gettin engaged!

and eir cant wait for next week either..

chillin out wit best gurlfrens this tuesday

meetin my long lost kakak angkat

and also..

graduation has finally gonna be

around the corner..

wow..

great events for eir...

erm.. yar

mentionin bout kakak angkat ku..

am glad my kak santi finally contact me!

lost her number a year ago

when eir lost her phone.

waduh..

now then she contact eir

tellin she gonna change her number.

the only indonesian sister eir have.

met her when i was 16.

when workin in warehouse together.

wo..

great memories eir had wit her.

and hoPefully

gonna meet her real sOon.

heex.

and yar.

finally got to work wit chris last nite.

and tonite again too..

hmm..

tengok lar nie anak filipino buat ape?

conteng tangan eir jek keje de!

cute kan...

heex

...kau tak mengerti

ingin kau ku miliki...

...andai kau fahami isi hatiku

yang benar ingin memiliku...

eirto's *sign of love

2008-05-11T22:14:00.004+08:00

happy mother's day to my lovely iBu!

usually my family dun really celebrate it..

but its okie..

still bought her a small cake!

pretty small

but

alhamdulillah

she loike!

well

suPpose to family outin celebratin mothers' day

but

si eir outs wit her kakak angkat

pat cwp

nengok ape?!

ayat ayat cinta!~

okie da story was touchin habis

wanna noe bout da movie..

watch urself!

its worth watchin movie tau!

and its my first time watchin malay movie in theatre

and am glad am satisfied wit it..

ouh yea

guys out there..

bring ur gurl to watch it okie?

serious!!

so that you guys will

appreciate each other more!

eir dun mind watchin da movie again

so religious!

and the beauty of egypt is unbelievable too!

hOpe i get to go there someday.

erm?..

and yar!!

yest was my most bestest outin wit

my bestie!!!!

wooohooo

we really shop till drop!

(ouh ye ke? hehs)

nasib uh kte lum nie budget skit..

lau tak mesti borong satu shopPin mall eh.

we bought our grad bear together..

and gift a name keychain for our phone!

lovely..

the outcome..

eir will show durin one day okie..

tunggu..

hehs.

its eir bestest outin together wit her bestie!

auwww..

yup finally just the two of us!

we never out shoPpin together.

and yest..

we really went wild

very wild indeed!
we went window shopPin

and really tried out the tops there

for once eir realise..

okie?

she actually can fit in those!

but not all of coz

hehs

but am hapPy we did somethin crazy..

and we really enjoy it eh!

some photos eir took...

wanna see?

ouh yeah..

tak pernah eir amik pix inside fitin roOm eh!

check outs!~

but hor!

eir and her bestie forgot to do somethin!

take a picture together!

wth..

nie pun lei lupe!
pyongs!~

eir wanna *watch the movie again!

...biarlah ku hidup seperti ini

takdir cinta harus begini...

|| eirto's in doubt ||

2008-05-07T23:12:00.003+08:00

surf da net durin work earlier

while the officers were out

to visit the lady

whom i took over her work

at the hospital

to see da new born baby boy

congrats

betta isnt it?

she went for leave earlier

and she gonna return earlier..

so eir can leave income ealier?

hmm

ouh yeah

eir has been worried

very worried for her own future

a fren gone for briefin @ SATS

she's gettin her new secured job already?

another tellin me her plans

plans to take up a course

to further her studies

and plannin wat kind of job she wants..

and eir?

wats wit her?

till how long she wanna be in =) ?

how long she wanna be a temp staff @ ntuc income?

eir really needs some advice here

and advice that can really wake her up

and face the real world

that she cant waste any more of her time

doin things that she's not suppose to do?

havin temp job at the same still wit her part time job!

eir has been really tired

really tired

that she feels like quittin both!~

she wants freedom!

she's tired havin 2 jobs

at the same

when she also wants to

have some time wit her bestie

frens, bros and kakak angkats

and worst wit family!

she haven treat the family dinner

as she promised herself since her last day of school..

when?..

when eir gonna end all dat?

and really start pursuin her dreams

her dreams that could secure her future...

eir never went wit mummy to bb

when she was off weeks ago.

and now she's more busy durin weekdays

and spends da weekends nite

servin customer @ =)

when?

when will eir open up her heart

and stops what she has been doin

eir was disturbed

when daddy sounded to me for the first time..

"pernah tak anak abah tanye.. abah kasi korang keje ke"

whereas that happens when i've been wit =)

for almost 2 years..

but alhamdulillah

eir has secured wit her temp job at the moment

and hopefully abah is happy wit it.

padehal eir dah two weeks wit income

but eir haven tell abah wher i've been workin

well..

abah tak tanye pun..

though every mornin we left for work

almost at the same timin...

okie get back to the topic i mentioned earlier..

what i finally did

aft comin back from lunch earlier

i surfed for the school i really wish to admit

printed out some info

and the application form..

the main problem is..

which one will be my choice?

the 'C' skills or ' P & B'

i loOve doin both

but i have to choOse one!

but which one?

the intake is this comin july

if i dont apply asap

i have to wait till january next year..

and wat am gonna do

when my temp contract ends..

shud i save till next year

and pay the fees all by myself

or sugn up for the july intake

ask parents to share the fees wit me

how?

i've already wasted 3 years of poly life

taken a course which i don't really like

which i do not regret at all... seriously

and manage to pass

thou wit mostly passin average grades

am glad i've made my parents happy

for completin my course of study

and finally graduatin dis end of the month

and seriously i dun wanna more horrible years

doin somethin i don't like... aGainn....

eir really needs some advice here eh..

eir has given the info n description to mummy

together wit the application forms

am not sure if mummy have enough money

for me to pursue my dreams.

but i do have some savings which

am not sure can last me for how many semesters

hopefully wda willing to help capped wit my fees

therefore i could lessen my parent's burden

haizx

really need someone for advice here

but to whom shud i turn to

the family is runnin upside down wit no endin

no endin for us

no endin for me..

nothin..

no hopes?

equals to no betta future...

haizx

eir *miss stars gazin at nite

...kelukaan ku ini usahlah kau peduli

biarku berduka di dalam tangisan rindu...

cinta eirto *bercerita

2008-05-05T23:33:00.004+08:00

ayat-ayat cinta

a movie dat i wanna watch
really i wanna watch
who will bring me?
bring me will you?

the songs soothes my hearin
my heart
my soul
i love it so much

maafkan bila ku tak sempurna
cinta ini tak mungkin ku cegah
ayat-ayat cinta bercerita
cintaku padamu

eirto's *trio outing

2008-05-05T21:45:00.004+08:00

eir keem su

the trio for the day!

yest suppose to go east coast food centre

tapi eir change it last min

coz ramai tak pegi

alhamdulillah

thou its a suPer mini gatherin

yet we really had fun tau!

bebual mepekz

macam macam uh!

kte mam pat aZeera restaurant eh?

(oOpzx lupe namenye)

pat kovan.

kinda near to hOme

so at least i did save on transport eh

heee

lepas mam n boraks

we played bowlin!

woohh lame tak main woo

last was years back when

keem faz rauda sue

celebrated my belated bdae

as usual..

am da lousiest bowler!

but durin third game

i was betta

and was ahead from the rest at first

but aft keem get irritates wit my results

my self-esteem down skit

padehal so sudden it uPs

when i strike at 3.1

around 3.5 n 3.6

eir hits nOne

so keem did catch uP

thus win da last game

cOz eir hits nOne again at 3.8

rabak rabak

eir become so unconcentrate already!

takPe takpe.

insya allah next time eir menang ke?

just needa concentrate... heezx

(i'll update da pix sOon when i got from my bro, keem alritex

okie wait am not concerntratin here..

been typin dis blog n chattin pat msn..

and me n my bestie shared big wordins wit each other

on our nicks..

wanna noe wat we wrote?

seriously takde keje!

eir: ITS REALLY HARD TO GO OUT WIT MY BESTIE! SO JGN TAK JADIK EK! YUP JUST THE 2 OF US!!!

ai: IYER LARHX EI-CHAN! IF U KEEP THAT NICK UP, I'LL BRING MY BF!!

eir: DEARIE AI IF U BRING URS ILL BRING MINE! CAM PAHAM!

ai: HAHA, DEN WE CAN GO FOR A DOUBLE DATE.. LOLX..

eir: DEARIE AI AKU BENCI SAME DE! DE JAHAT!

ai: HAHA.. NANTI JADI SATU DOA.. PADAN MUKE HANG!

eir: DEARIE AI, SATU DOA EH?! BIAR BIAR SMUE ORG TAU AKU BENCI SAME DE!

ai: AKU DAH BILANG. KO TAK MAU DGR.. NANTI MENYESAL, JGN CARI AKU!

eir: EIR MEMANG DAH MENYESAL PUN.. KERANA EIR BODOH BANGET LAMBAT REACT~

okie wait?!

was i?

and ai replies: THATS JUX COZ U HAVENT BEEN SHOWING ENUF..

and finally eir: EIR WASNT SHOWIN ENUF? AM NOT CHEAP FOR SURE. LOL

again ai: SINCE U SAID IT THAT WAY.. GUESS HE'S REALLY TOO SLOW..

eir: HE'S TOO SLOW? OR WAS I TOO STUPID?

ai: Ei-chan.. No worries k, if its meant to b, ko jugak happy.. ^__^

eir: what if its not.. am the one yang merana now... merana dgn feelins sendiri..

ai: keep an eye on one thing.. U'll miss out on de other wonderful things....

haizx

okie wateva we've discuss

only dis two bestie understands

hehs

tiada guna ku merayu

mengharapkan kasih mu

sedangkan aku tahu payah buatmu

tiada guna ku disini

disini, dan masih menanti

kini aku sedari takdir ilahi

|| the day eirto visits *zooLogical garden ||

2008-04-30T22:43:00.008+08:00

5th aPril '08

yesh went to the zOo

paid 16 bux per tix!

kinda ex

but its okie

baru dapat gaji

so takmau uh lokek ye

went wit dearie ai

kak tee2 n other 3 of her colleagues

plus baby ean!!

all of them memang kecoh

jalan kecoh!

nak makan lagik uh kecoh

kwangz3

well peopZies

let the pix do the story okie?!

heezx

the first nature found there

that am amazed most!

indahnye ciptaan tuhan!!!

(skali ciptaan manusia eh?!)

kwangz3

the first animal i saw

called... "pigdeer!~"

tak glamournye

the white tigers!

meoOOOoww!!!!

ehhh..

aUummm?!

upcLose!

cute kan?!! so aDorabLe..

tu namanya kancil!

do they look intelligent?

smart?

macam sesat ade uh!

they looked small in this pix

but in real life

indeed they are huge!

real HUGE!

emBeekk..
dimana dia.. anak kambun gue?!!..

BaBoons!
wit big butts!
euwwww!!!!

the family of amengs
still exists
no worries
ramai betul cucu cicitnye.. =)

baby elephant!

i didnt know

my mummy was here!

and is part of the zOo family!!!

lol

menduck nye lion

macam lum makan jek?

nie manusia depan mu ramai tau..

oOpzxx

ewah tinggi nye de!

the story of zebra & ostrich really disgust me!

dats why they are now placed far apart from each other!

the real cheetahs went missin

so zOokeePer!,

remove that sign!

we never went further in...

so amik gambar pat entrance pun jadik uh!

heee

the humble peacocks

which never show off their colourful feather for the day!

wth!~

the naughty & playful seaLion

durin animal show!

ek! ek! ek!

BUAYA DARAT & BUAYA LAUT!
mane satukah anda?

eir just love the nature...

baby ean
who keep us laugh all the way...
=)

my favourite one!!!!
the white polar bear!
hehehe

met him the day b4 at causeway point!
i want this!!!!
cutekan?!!!
buy for me?
pleaseeee...
-_-V

|| eirto *belated celebration ||

2008-04-30T22:40:00.007+08:00

25th March '08

eir birthday

was celebrated by

my darlins

dearie aini dearie daya dearie fylo dearie shad

at shad's homies

planned to surprise shad

but aini dah terlepas cakap same shad

dat they all nak celebrate eir nye bdae pat rumah shad

so kire tak surprisin langsung to her

and so do i..

coz the day b4

while i was outs wit daya..

fylo called me to talk wit daya

since mane ku tau dorang mau diskusi..

ku on itu speaker..

terus ku terdengar ler...

lol

kwangs3!

so sorie dearie fylo

den while eir odw gi shad homies

aini called me and asked my whereabouts

i said am outs

and asked her along when she said tgh menducks

den de kate takpe takpe

padehal eir dapat rasekan sesuatu

coz aini jarang call unless ade hal

heezx

so its a shared celebration again

and a shared birthday cake

that was bought by eir myself

hehe

shared cake tuhh ade surprised skit

tak sangke

beli sendri untuk diri sendri jugak

nasib baik cake tu lawa!

hur hur hur...

so this is eir's piece for herself uh!

besar wo..

lambat tuhh nak habiskan!

heee

so?!
ape dorang bagi eir?
nak tau tak?
this final year kte smue dah janji
nak bagi a memorable prezzie for each other...
jadi..
eir received somekind of gathered postcards
wit pix of myself
and their warmest wishes...

plus a photo frame wit their faces...
okie wait!mane eir nye pix?!
sobzx
makenye frame tuhh cume lei muat 4 org jek..
takpe takpe..
adek eir mengalah...
kasi chan same korang tueks tueks
heezx

nanti eir mau beli stick on nye photo album
and i will keep the postcards into it wit all the memories
yang kite pernah amik together!
cool tak?!
(ntah bile nak beli albumnye pun tak tau)
heehs
a bit of their warm wishes i wanna extract n share wit you peopZies here

-----

from dearie shad:

"...can joke around n talk crap all the time..."

eir replies: yeah betul.. kte selalu bebual crapzies tul tak?!

heeeh

from dearie daya:

"... the most understanding n most

lovable friend around..."

eir replies: erm understandin? betul ke? thanx ye!

lau ade prob jgn malu share wit eir okie?!

err lovable ek?

tak tau plak kte nie lovable!

hehs

from dearie fylo:

"...we shared the bad & happy times together...

Remember bratzx?..."

eir replies: thanx lotsa for endearin wit me

thru the hardships in skool

sorry banget lau eir nie pemalas n

not bein a good partner durin sem3 eh?!

and am glad i have a friend like you too.. =)

bratzx eh?! dah tambah aini kite dah tak lei jadi bratzx uh!

kene tukar title tau..

from dearie aini:

" in the soft gleaming night of stars

may all you dreams come true...

May every star of every night

bring love and low to you..."

eir replies: thou its near to the end of poly life i met you..

i treasured the moment the time you

introduce to me ciptaan tuhan pada waktu malam

yang tak pernah ku duga indah nikmatnya selama ini...

-----

thanx dearie for all the warm wishes..

it doesn matter who wrote the best notes for me eh

the main thing is

our bondin will remain forever...

from just the 4 of us...

sekarang..
kite dah ber 5

(alamak senget plak gambar nie..)

may we stay close together

even after we graduated alritex?

muacks dearies

luv you gurls!~

to dearie nurul 'ai
thanx for knitted the small brown keychain for me!
so sweet of you, dearie..
must have put lotsa effort doin it
(macam tau jek kte suke brown colour!!!)
hehs
luv you to bits, bestie!
muacks

|| eirto is a *lousy blogger! ||

2008-04-30T22:12:00.003+08:00

heyho bloggie!
it has been sOo long
since eir last update.
its coming to april end
and this is only the first post of the month!
gosh!

so peopZies
do hang on awhile wit the postins am updatin...
so much to share
when i went HIATUS
for more than a month!
best events i have to update
thou it has over for some time
but i just wanna share wit u guys
plus also fill up my blog wit the best '08 moments
so dat i can remember it forever
as long as my bloggie still exists.
heezx

well...
eir has been busy!
seriously busyplus tired.
has been workin wit =)
very VERY frequently
macam takde life pun ade..
many things happen at work
the bondin wit kak dee n nad
has been closer
since kak dee left da store
we talked on the phone almost everyday
macam matair...
ade jek nak diperbualkan
life
relationship
family
even pasal hal dapur!
hal jaga kecantikan diri
macam macam uh!
kakkla tak?

so now i have another kakak angkat
cant believe we could get closer like now
coz seriously i used to hate her!
she's loud like fylo
and she looove to nag
wahlauwei..
but slowly am gettin use to it.
lucky i found fylo first
so when am close wit kak dee
i noe how these people already.
people who sees her..
confirmed wont believe
she's actually 35 this year
with 3 kids lagik eh!
am so glad i found a sister like her.
i can just share everythin wit her
thou she's no more wit =)
she does drop by at nite to visit me
da touchin part is
she came not wit empty handed
she cooked for me to fill up my stomach when am done wit the store
woahh sedap wo!!!
asam pedas uh
spaghetti...
nasi lemak uh..
ape lagik eh..
erm...
tapi yang teklei angkatnye
pedas giler!
heezx
takpe eir memang suke pedas kan?!

until now we still keep in contact
and she will call me up everyday askin my day
gossipin bout the store n peoples
even thou she's not wit =) animore
yet..everythin dat happen in the store
she will noe
even my upcomin roster she is bein updated
padehal kekdg eir sendri lum tau next schedule
de dah tau dulu
kwang3!

hopefully jimbo will return sOon
and marry her!
heezx
bayangkan people
an attachment philipino guy aged 23
lei tersangkut ngn 35 janda!
amazingkan?!!
even chris (the new attachment guy)
cud't believe..
"how can love developed in such a small store?!"
lol

well..
love is in the air
dah cinta juga tidak mengenal usia
malah agama juga...
tul tak?
ade jek eir berfalsafah pasal cintan cintun nie
padehal eir takdetak pernah ade pun...
tapikan
asal eh...
most of my friends still come to me
bile dorang ade relationship problem?
dorang tuhh smue salah org kan.
tapi takpe
asal dorang suke share ngn eir
eir sanggup mendengar
dan bantu jika perlu.
bukan susah kan...beri nasihat jek.
heezx

|| eirto hates *it ||

2008-03-20T15:12:00.005+08:00

its all start wit the songs
representin the feelins..
how i felt
what am feelin
and
what i'll feel

it started wit

~~with you~~
by chris brown
this song when i first heard it
i feel that everyone is fallin in love

and i got myself

fall in love wit the song too

and i assigned it as my ringtone only for you
most of my friends posted the song in their blogs
till i got hook to it

until now..
but then
i won't listen that song as much as i did last time

cause it will only remind me of the past memories

will only increase the volume of the radio
when it is on air
at my workplace
haix
" when the hearts are all over the world tonite "

kenangans!~

~~ingkar~~
by bunga citra lestari
a sweet song indeed
its like the feelings developed without signal
and the song too proved somethin
that
" you have to realise that you don't have to fall in love "
rite?...

then
it has changed to
~~aku masih sayang~~
by st12
an upBeat song
wit meaningful lyrics

" still wanting to be love and don't wanna be left alone "

and now
still by st12
rasa yang tertinggal
enjoy this peopz

heart this song much

and everytime i listen to this

especially at nite

i just want the stars to accompany me

throughout the nite...

" will i get to hold you tite, the heaven of my heart... "

(mampos.. emo nie)

maybe

soon

when i cant take it anymore...

am gonna change to the song

salam sejahtera

by samudera

an old song

wit pretty much

unbearable meanings

and by then

am gonna forget everything

" i'll bid you goodbye... "

everything...

every single memory

i once had wit you

menghapus jejakmu

by peterPan

will be the best

to describe

and

if the time comes

and you enter my life again

by then

" i'll move on and will forget you... "

*when she falls in love

" ...aku tak mampu mengatakan

aku tak mampu untuk mengungkapkan... "

|| eirto is graduatin!!!!~ ||

2008-03-13T20:28:00.004+08:00

alhamdulillahirabbil alaamin

syukur pade tuhan

finally..

i'll be graduatin this year

yeah!~

after chOo much

endearance

n hardships to understand every subjects

overnitins

to complete assignments

panda eyes

for not havin enough sleeps

redBulls

to bOost energy for not sleepin

laPpie

to carry wit durin overnites

comPuters

used @ labs

McDonalds

to hangout

music

for companion

watchin stars

to calm & destress myself

aini

thanx for accompany

someOne

thanx so much for overnitin wit me

mOre overnites

lalala

warhlah!~

i'll be gettin my diploma

thou i dont really favour

my own course

yet

i don't want to

let down my parents' heart kan

by quitin halfway

at least

aft my elder siblings

giving much problems

to them

(bout their education)

am glad

i've finally complete my poly

heex

wit humble grades

entrepreneur C (kinda disheartenin but okie uh)

cmsk4 c+

inwt B? (ajaib nie for this subject)

mbws d+

and most importantly

passin my mwcMp!!!

woohoo.

alhamdulillah

i dont need to retain for another semester

and

yar gurls

am ready for

chroma de runway

yeah babey!~

so to my darlin friends

who are still in poly

you guys can do betta alritex

never

end up gettin grades like me

okie

lol

|| fickled minded eirto ||

2008-03-10T22:59:00.003+08:00

wth!~

so agitated today

not goin so well wit my mummy these days

skejap de okie

skejap lagik tak okie

skrg dah okie balik dah de

eirto dah blanje mamam pe

am so tired

preparin for chroma de runway

makenye

blum start lagik

langsung!~

baju lum tempah

tadi dah nak pegi dah

tak pegi lagik

bile baju mau siap

so ape yang penat pun ntah uh

wit full of guts

eirto got herself ready

and wanna head sberang dah..

and suddenly

mummy sounded

"ntah ntah kedai tutups nari

sebab monday nie"

okie

eirto dah ups nie..

so eirto called da shop

and no one picked up

equals to

SHOP IS CLOSE FOR THE DAY

aiyoo..

so eirto tetibe

no heart to go chroma de runway dah

told daya

malas tau nak explain apasal

coz

eirto sendri tak tau nape

pyong!~

since dah get ready

takkan nak change balik

eirto called daya

if she's free

kte meet pat mac near afghan

watched videos pat youtube

kakkla rabak

almost 7

we made our move

ate at rasa 21

had porridge

makenye

eirto masih sakitkan

tak lei makan sedap2 sgt

lepaih makan

kene beli tapau pulak

tu kat rumah

perut smue kekosongan

ade jek si thirah nak nasi lemak

mummy plak nak rojak india

daya temankan eirto

pegi afghan!

sambil lalu banyak kedai tu

ade lar masuk satu kedai baju nie

aiyamak eirto suke banget satu baju tu

since dalam gengaman ade duit

ape lagik

eirto kebas uh

sbelum tu testin dulu

mane tau tak muat kan

chedibah kambin

dah testin2

muat plak tuhh..

ape lagik kaup jek

one thing bout eirto

its so difficult for her to go shopPin.

when eirto has the money

and wanna shOp

there's nOne

that berkenan dihati

dan

aPabila hati eirto tidak rase mau shoPpin

kerna duit sudah kehabisan

ade jek eirto dah berkenan eh!~

waduh

anw eirto nye wardrobe

dah runnin out of clothin

so beli jek uh

and yar...

eirto left wit only 50 bucks

until next month

sengkek betul nie!~

tapi malas keje plak tu!

lol

lau mummy return 100 bucks

aft abah dapat gaji

ermm

tu duit mau tolak utk
chroma de runway

chiss

nak blanje sakan nampak si eirto nie

tapi takpe uh

skali skale di hari raye!~

(raye wak lu)

hehs

okie uh dats all for tonite

eirto waitin for daddy

to come back from seremban

i think

dah lame tak nampak abah

makenye...

and also tgh chattin

same mangkok nie

wahlarh..

...aku sungguh masih sayang padamu

jangan sampai kau meninggalkan aku...

|| jatuh cinta lagi ||

2008-03-10T22:16:00.002+08:00

eirto madness

mOove to the grOove babey
heart this song so much eh
lolzx
dance to beat!~
ouh yeah!~~~

...dia atau dia yang harus ku cinta
aku pusing untuk memilihnya...

|| congratulations to ustzh nur & her hubby hafiz ||

2008-03-09T17:47:00.008+08:00

sick
SICK
SICK
am still sick
help me.. people!

i can hardly hear anythin
my cough aint that bad already
my nose still runny
but not so bad uh

my voice sounds creappy still

anyways
yest
eirto keem rauda
went to ustzh nur's weddin
finally
the big day has come
so,
congratulations ustzh!!~

you looked great wit ur hubby
the function was simple
yet the food was suPerbly nice
heezx
met ustzh karmila there too
faz was late
only saw him a distance away
when we left & was waitin for the bus

we three
head to town
to meet the rest
zam nisa n rafi

its another mdrsh gatherin
thanx to nisa formakin this small gatherin specially for us..

booked a rOom
@ ceneleisure
watched ZooLander!
interestin movie i must say
ate doritos & lays
and the rest
shared a big bottle of coke
i wanna drink too
but
i dun wanna spread the disease
which can make everyone fall sick like me thou
hehs

the rOom was pretty small
for six of us.
i think the esplanade betta
and yar
while watchin
we can even hear the sound of people
makin noise outside
a bit distractin
but still
i did enjoy maself yest
=)

really hOpe that
our next outin
more people will join us.
so,
who will be the next
event organiser?!!
just check check check it outs

aku terbang tinggi

untuk menggapai bintang dilangit

|| eirto turns 20 ||

2008-03-06T22:41:00.007+08:00

yup

read that title?!

its me

turns 20th today

ourghh..

eirto dah tua lar

and yar

eirto was super sick today too

okie bdae gurl sakit

cian kan

ourghh...

slept almost the whole day

coz eirto's head hurts so much

thanx to my darlins

who wished me today

first was

maSis aini kakDee hengy shad

keem fylo faz

they either messaged while

maSis kakDee & myBros keem & faz

called me

so paisei to pick up da calls at first

coz my voice

really suckin today

yet very sweet uh for them to call

esp

faz bro

he wished me

mcm bace script

lol

and yar

the rest

hest liyi wani ai hana maSis again

nas su daya & lilCuzzie mal

wished me thru

friendster

thanksy darLins

hearts you guys

soOo much

this is my bdae cake

from ma family

cute kan

i understand they were

suPer brOke

so i dont really expect somethin big from them

i only ate the white choc tart

yum yum

and yar

since i was sick

my bdae food is the medicine

yucks!~

well i didn't swallow them

i took the syrup instead

and at this 20th of age

am still afraid to swallow madicine eh

pyongs!~

my first prezzie from someOne

is this..

a pair of gold stuts!

gosh

first time received such gifts

even my family won't

give me that

thanx kakDee

appreciate it lotsa

secondly

a box of chocs
from hafizBAM
more of a farewell gift
but its okie
i take it as bdae prezzie lar eh
hehs

since i was sick
i did not went out whole day
until when i was restin on the bed again
fylo called me up
ask me
to see if hafizFylo is ard my area
makenye dorang had a fight i think
so fylo actually asked me
to get down and find him to pass cab money
but hafizFylo wasnt around
when i called fylo
she said he already board a bus

okie!~
geram nie
but my heart
terubat skejap
pabila sedang mencari hafizFylo earlier
i saw a shiny star above me
one wish i made
hope i get well sOon
on dis very bdae nite
heezx
amin.

| the leap years |

2008-03-05T23:28:00.003+08:00

the word
'MISS'
appears more frequently than
'LOVE'
in love letters

Dari hati kini kusadari
Tak semestinya aku berkasih...

|| sad yet sweet moments ||

2008-03-05T22:12:00.006+08:00

for sure

am still sick

been sick for more than a week

i think

sometimes gettin betta

sometimes gettin worsen uh

aiyoo

and my voice too

gettin unheard

but my backPain is perfectly fine

after slept for hours that day

den i realise

i've not been havin good sleep

okie

went out wit tiana yest

accompanied her to take her pay cheque

long time never see her

mish her so much uh

we had drinks together

shared dis hotdog prata

went shoppin at fairprice

ate mcFlurry too

yum yum

okie wait!~

mcFlurry

am sick yet i ate ice cream!

lol

and yar more talks & chats together

bout wats haPpenin

in life and such

fun bebual ngn de

thou long we are no more colleagues

but we still do

stay contact wit each other

and yar

she's my most frequent blog reader!

rajin de bace eh

when the clock strikes 2245

i need to report for work

workin wit hafiz BAM last nite

and will be our last workin nite together

coz its his second last day of work wit =)

how time flies so fast

and he'll be reportin his Ns

in a week's time

its my 4th time workin wit him

and i really enjoyed workin wit hime too

like i was wit kakDee..

and now dis people

leavin me alone

in the store

and i'll feel awkward workin wit other staffs

durin nite shifts

wth!~

we ended our work early

ard 2am

and by den kakDee finally reach store

she cooked for us asamPedas

and dis hafizBAM doesnt eat fish!

wth!~

and syg jugak kakDee wit hafizBAM

she fried chicken wings for him

padehal kakDee dah outs

and masuk umah balik

coz teringatkan si hafizBAM tak makan ikan

ishh...

okie ape lagi lar kan

kte picnic uh kat luar!~

makan sedap sedap!

and kakDee's asamPedas power!

we had very long chats outside the store

and it was a memorable nite too

coz it will be my last nite

wit kakDee & hafizBAM

outside the store picnickin & chattin

ourghh

why does dis have to hapPen so fast

and den i realise

i MUST be the next one to quit

workin wit =) for almost 2 years

has never been so fun & memorable

until these people are leavin

furthermore

at the same time

expectedly & unexpectedly

when the clock reach almost 430

pika drop by

(he's our regular customer

who never fails to buy viceroy menthol & greenTea)

knowin dat his mak (kakDee) is ard

and yar one important thingy to announce here

i just bein name another nick which is teletubbies!~

wth lar kan

i got so many nicks lately

1st

my poly frens

they kept callin me bard

and i really dun get it how does it came bout

2ndly

kakyu's daughter called me

kakak cine yang pakai tudung tu

okie dis is funny uh

since when am a chinese eh

ape jek kakyu ajar anak de tuh..

and 3rdly

pika called me teletubbies

ntah ape case ntah de tu

call me dat

tak betul..

yar aniwae

wed morn aft get back from work

i didn't sleep

straightaway

need to get ready to meet

kakDee & pika

to watch the Leap Years!~

yeay

its my first time goin out wit dem

and first time actually

goin out wit a customer!

met pat mac @ northPoint

am so glad

finally i got to watch movie

aft so long..

dah almost 3 months i think

lame tuhh

the movie was suPer nice

suPerbly touchin

there are few touchin scenes

and i can maintain my emotions

but still at the end

i cried

rabaks!~

tidak..

the movie is so sweet makenye...

ourghh!~

aft me & kakDee went to the ladies

i was a bit disturbed

coz i lost somethin of mine

my eirto metallic keychain!

its my second time loosin it!

gosh.. =(

its so difficult to make it these days

anione found dat kind of shop do tell me okie

know its already an outdated thingy

but i still love it

so sad its gone again!

help me okie people

thanx

we ate kfc

and by den

my voice started to disappear

help!~

was tryin to talk badly

when i was orderin the food

and the cashier almost had a hard time hearin me

lol

we ate & chat happily

and i did enjoy that short outin we spent together

as i mentioned

hoPefully dis outin wit me & kakDee

doesnt end only once..

muacks

and then eirto

happily goes home cause

eirto really enjoy that morn

wit a bit sadly heart

coz eirto lost

that keychain..

reaches home

and slept till nite...

eirto still nineteenth

eirto misses someOne

|| this ain't haPpenin ||

2008-03-03T14:20:00.002+08:00

am happy

yest

we gurls

aini daya fylo eirto

plus two bfs taggin along

celebrated shad's bdae

@ simpang Bedok

makenye family de blanje kte

well

suPpose to have a bbq party

@ EC

however since the weather

wasnt promisin at all

she decided to cancelled it

we ate lotsa food uh

seafoOd dishes wit rice

the most delicious is the

CHAR KUEY!~

(is dat the correct spellin?)

niwae if its not bcoz of them

orderin that CK when durin our meals last time

i wont be knowin dat its

uBerLy.. niCE!!!

okie wait

its somebody's bdae

orang lain plak yang blanje

hehs

so shad...

do wait for ur bdae prezzie from us

makenye tak sempat mau bikin

smue bz giler

especially si eirto!

hmmm..

aniwae at the same time

am uberly sad

coz

i wont get the chance to work

wit someOne

i respect her like my own sister

animore,

maybe bcoz of my carelessness

for not bein the

observant kind

ur job is at stake

i cant believe this could happened so fast

only if i knew

he was there

i would have told you earlier

and now

we wont be sPendin time together

listenin to malay channels in the store

chattin

laughin

havin 'picnics'

outside the store

...when we finish our work

i wont be hearin ur naggins animore

u wont be bringin food for me to try

and..

am gonna mish you sOoo much!~

hOpe

what you plan for us

to watch the leap years

this wednesday

wont be cancelled.

let it be our first outin together

and never be the last one.

sobzx

haizxx.

take care sis..

coz i care for you too..

(mesti jimbo bingits eh?)

ouh tidak...

please tell me its not hapPenin!~

|| special dedication ||

2008-03-02T15:46:00.002+08:00

earlier

i like dis song bcoz i find it nice

after hearin the lyrics carefully

(only aft postin in dis blog)

den i realise it does gave meanin

in my life somehow..

so,

i would like to dedicate dis song

specially to someone yang bergelar

SESEORANG

yang pernah satu ketika

sentiasa menyinari hidupku

walau sekejap

tapi penuh bermakna..

here it goes...

Ingkar

Disaat cinta tercipta

Semestinya aku merasa

Dikala hasrat mendalam

Semestinya aku berbalas

Ho..oh.. Ho.. ohh..

Dari hati kini ku sadari

Tak semestinya aku berkasih

Dikala hati tak dapat berbagi

Baiknya rasa itu tersimpan dalam

Semestinya aku mencinta

Seharusnya aku menyanyang

Oh maafkan jika semua ini yang kuberikan.... untukmu

Dari hati kini kusadari

Tak semestinya aku berkasih

Dikala hati tak dapat berbagi

Baiknya rasa itu tersimpan dalam...

Semestinya aku mencinta

Seharusnya aku menyanyang

Oh maafkan jika semua ini yg kuberikan... untukmu

Semestinya aku mencinta

Seharusnya aku menyanyang

Oh maafkan jika semua ini yg kuberikan.. untukmu

Oww.. oww.. Ow....

Semestinya aku mencinta

Seharusnya aku menyanyang

Oh maafkan jika semua ini yg kuberikan...

Dari hati kini kusadari

Tak semestinya aku berkasih...

|| featured song of the month : Feb ||

2008-02-29T11:00:00.004+08:00

hey peopzies
eirto just love dis song so much
that she wanna share wit you dis moment
hope you guys enjoy dis
alritezx?!
layan!~

semestinya aku mencinta

seharusnya aku menyayang

|| semestinya aku mencinta, seharusnya aku menyayang ||

2008-02-29T01:17:00.004+08:00

yelar TIANA

i update!

bace nie..

and the story goes like dis

eirto now tgh sakit

ade runnin nose

and eirto's head like burstin sOon

why?

ntah uh

not enough sleep maybe

been workin

and less den 5 hours

woke up again to outs

eirto's back hurts so much

either been sleepin too much

been carryin heavy stuff at work

serious uh

workin @ =) pun headache eh

but whateva it is

eirto is happy

cause eirto made others happy!!!

heezx

celebrated fylo's bdae yest

mak ai!

belated bdae makenye!

her bdae falls on 27 Jan

but since we were too bz wit skool

tak sempat to celebrate till yest!

made a special video for her

specially made by

shad daya & eirto

she does love it!

and i bought mini blueberry cake @ r-mall

b4 meetin the rest

yummy uh!

but sadly

da surprise for her was leak by da bdae gurl itself

for seein me tryin to hide among da walls

when she was peepin thru her window

makenye..

lakonan eirto sentiase tak MENJADI

den at nitenye (smalam)

eirto head to r-mall again b4 work

to buy cake for aini

she called last nite

wakin me ups

sayin

"we havin lunch on thurs rite?!"

so i went

oOpsy?!

really? gosh!

eirto tot is on friday

so i quickly inform the rest

wheda they can make it on thurs instead

since nak menggembirakan aini

yang slalu

down down & down

i told da gurls durin fylo bdae celebration

kte celebrate aini bdae?

when i meet her for lunch dis friday

dat falls on 24th last sun

kte surprise kan de ke?..

da last minute surprise for today almost went well

wit da hazelnut cake hand over to fylo b4 eirto went to work

while daya & shad meet up earlier to buy prezzie

....

asked aini to wake me up @ 12

and i waited & waited

she never wake up call me!

instead,

i called her almost burzillions time

okie how?!~

da gurls da meet up

while me gettin ready

and still callin till i reach cwp

i almost gave up!

and sad to tell da rest dat aini is

UNCONTACTABLE!

even aft more than 20 calls

okie eirto dah kene buih

but still eirto tak putus asa eh

one hOpe

try call aini bf

and i did

tellin him da rest dah meet up

cake & prezzie dah prepared

CAMNE NIE

and when her bf called her

den finally she picked up

barular si mangkok aini sms me

and immediately i called her!

i told her.

i already reach cwp

and i'll wait for her to come jugak

and thanx to her bf!

for not tellin da surprise am givin to her dearie

so aft waitin for 1 1/2 hrs

she appeared @ 711

muke stone eh

nak kate baru abis nangis TAK!

nie tak sukup tido nie

accompanied her withdraw money @ civic awhile
jalan super slow..
hopin dat the rest got enough time to set up
reach banquet
and aini goes like...
macam kat ITAS pulak
and i brought her to see da rest
and
SURPRISE!
for the first time ever
eirto's lakonan went super well!

from only a two fren lunch meet up

to a surprise blated celebration with other 3 plus 1!

suke de!~

she said..

its her first time ever

friends actually celebrated her bdae

first time havin candles on cake

and yar more surprise for her

we bought her sth that she wants

a handphone pouch!

ourghhh...

touchin nye de

nasib baik tak nangis tadi

and a mini bear we bought for her..

i nearly cried too

coz somethin i planned

FINALLY

went well

thou the plan

ALMOST

cock up

but they stopped me eh

coz they dun wanna cry ramai2!

coz they said

if i start to cry..

the rest too bleh cry

lol

am happy coz she's happy

and am happy coz everyone was happy too

thou eirto was tired

and the lack of sleeps

and gettin sick i think

importantnye...

am glad i made everyone,

happy!

|| miss her school ||

2008-02-22T21:10:00.006+08:00

eirto rots almost whole day again!~

lol

but yest eirto outs awhile

first to school to return mP stuff

back to supervisor

did some transfer of files at the lab

gosh am gonna miss my work station

thats where i did almost of my work durin 3.3

aft dat met daya awhile to hand over chroma de runway money

bad news occured!~

de organiser told her the tix were sold outs

padehal kte dah booked 7 tix weeks ago

and he even set da date & time

to collect money from daya

end up false hOpe!

we all

eirto daya fylo hana mary saf & shad

'peng' gile eh

mangkok tingkat itu anak

saje2 jual 4 tix to others

and now only left another 4

so irresponsible!~

lau hadapkan duit sangat..

bukannye kte tak kan bayar kan..

but hopefully aft negotiation by daya

we will still get our tix

but da chances is still 50-50

only will noe it dis monday

if not

chroma de runway..

tata you go!

eveninnye

eirto went to cP wit sis

to return her library books

and dgr2 eirto pinjam buku

wooo..

dah lame tu eirto tak bace buku!

lol

for just now

eirto woke up early in da morn

need to send baby husna

to her school again

nakal de!

heezx

drop by umah mak long japz

lame tak jumpe de

boraks japz

and ya its time to fetch husna back home

den aft eirto took a nap

by late aft b4 maghrib

ordered pizza

from pizza 4 u!

blei tahan sedap uh

okie uh now need to get ready

kinda late already dah nie

goin to work wit kak dee later

hehhs

anithin i'll update again

caLo peopzieS!~

|| its finally over ||

2008-02-20T22:19:00.006+08:00

wahlahh!~

skool's finally over yest.

and i slept almost thru out the day today

wat happened to eirto?

slack sia.

but one thing happen today was

i had a dream

when i slept just now

durin aft

late granny came to me

hugged her so tite that i dun feel like lettin her off

and when i sedar from nap

i was indeed huggin my pillow

the same way i did in my dream

and i can feel tears on my eyes

ourghh.

i miss her!~

okie wat happen few days back?

on monday: 18th Feb '08

wo.. woke up kinda late

coz eirto ton wit mangkok @ mac

the nite b4

accompanied by her bf

met radee there too

aft so long

dah nak kahwin dah de

aft ns.

well in two years time

jgn lupe anta kad kahwin ye

okie reached skool almost 12
took cab

(macam org kaye eh)

just b4 final mP presentation

and thank god my gui overalls worked well

-_-V

thanx to fylo for the final help

i must say

we had hard time durin presentation

coz we kana bombard rabak2 by evaluator

the presentation ends almost 2 hrs

and i think we were the only group

had such a long presentation!~

but its okie

i did convinced da evaluator on de part i did

thou i did stumbled wit my words

fylo did help me to explain

when the evaluator don't understand me

okie wateva lar

eirto's english is indeed poor aniwae

lol

and finally its over!~

went to toilet and met fylo there

was kinda a touchin moment happened there

me & fylo hugged each other

coz our hardwork has finally over

and hopefully will be paid off at least wit a passin grade.

coz durin the presentation only both of us stands out

especially more to fylo!~ (of coz)

she explains well and did da main part of da project

thanksie darlin!

(thou i noe u tak bace nie blog tapi takpe am just givin u my greatest gratitude to u here)

biar smue org bace

dat u are my greatest workin partner buddy for 3.3

mane tak..

almost every subject we are grouped together

and dat time bile cmsk presentation

kite dah macam kembar siam eh!~

wore almost the same outfit

and ya kononnye we are from the SULO team

gosh!~

okie i flung my inwt test

tak blaja langsung makenye

inside LT

hopin for the answers to fall

am indeed thankful to god

that this clever guy sat near me.

and ya for da first time ever..

eirto did not study at all for her paper

and for her last paper some more eh

okie so eirto did somethin dat she was not suppose to

which is.

copied someOne's work!!!~

heck ar

but serious i noe nothin bout the subject

been in my own world

thinkin & focusin more on mP

till i dun even care bout other subjects nimore.

lepas inwt paper finish

went back to mP lab

eirto's fren need to discuss for her project

and ya..

suddenly,

mangkok decided to borrow her dad's car for the last time

while she can 'peng' her dad

dat she needs to ton to do skool work

so we gurls..

aini eirto daya fylo & shad

had supper @ simpang bedok

its so hard to get fylo to outs wit us

bcoz of her overProtective boyfren eh!~

and she manage to 'peng' her bf

yeay!~

but by da time she convince us she can outs.

our big plan for her has to be cancelled eh

haiya.

aniwae we had fun on our

gurls' nite out

special food ordered by da gurls was

banana prata wit ice cream uh

prata bomb wit cheese uh

and aini's burger mushrOom wasn dat bad too

okie no pix here coz its wit shad

aft the stomachs filled

we head to shell to top up some petrol

for the first time ever am payin the petrol

but of coz ar sharin wit the rest

since eirto no money

eirto uses her nets

so its kinda a first time experience payin petrol

ermm..

aiya really feel like takin license now.

but mummy just wont let me take the 'm'

she said either eirto takes none or 'c'

okie watevalar

we head to eastcoast beach

the clouds wasnt promisin

and dun really get t0 see nice stars

sobzx

eirto & aini sat on breakwaters

had some discussion & all

bebual ngn aini memang gerek

thou only lately we started to get closer

her stories memang fun ar to hear.

basically we can share wateva we want together

so aft sometime when we saw a movin creature

which is a livin rat and a crawlie roach

we made our move to sit wit the rest at the bench

then aft sometime we left

as the clock strikes almost 3

sent shad first, daya & fylo

sat under her void deck awhile

sembangzx jap baru uh mangkok sends me home

best giler ar dat nite

so gurls hopefully kte kluar lagi alritez?

will mish you gurls so much!~

yest: 19th Feb '08

woke up super late

damn!

someOne forgot to wake me up

and am late for my last day of school

tu lar mrayapz lagik kan!~

took cab again

terkopak duit eirto!

coz told member i overslept

and of coz ar he mad at me

as we are supposed to meet @ 1130

and i woke up ard 1110

mane member tak ngamuks kan

eirto was super kanchong 'spider' b4 her demo

kept askin da rest wat da tcher were askin

and when its my turn

bleh senyum kambin cakap 'hi' pat tcher

tcher tanye: are u confident?

and eirto goes like

"ermm.. think so"

tcher.. erm wait his a doc actually..

okie doc was super patient

and when one of my commands were wrong

he told me dat dats not da command

so i type another one

and happily showed him the correct one

he even asked me one of the question

that is written on the project assignment

so.. i guess the doc doesn noe wat to ask already.

or just testin on me

lol

indeed da demo was okie

and wahlah..

dats my final assesment in tP!

wohooo

okie we have bdae invitation in de aft

its betty's 21st bdae

held @ one of the changi's chalet

didnt really noe her uh actually

but since org dah jemput

takkan tak pegi kan..

since it was still too early.

aini decided to bring us to her home

while waitin for her bf

to fetch & send us to the party

search for prezzie @ west mall

and it was my first time step in Bukit Batok

warghh rabak ehs

umur dah tua nie still blum travel most part of sPore!

da party was great

ade this delicious brownies

eirto cui brape kepin eh

lol

and da best part was..

i saw beautiful stars

above me!~

it really melts my heart

there were so many

and i can even see the north star!

three stars aligned

and an arrow pointin to the north

super awesOme!~

aft the bdae songs

and cake distribution

plus takin of photos

we decided to make a move.

eirto thinks that we shudnt bein lampPost

to aini & her bf

so decided to walk out to the bustp

lucky ade mul atikah & mirah

so it was da more the merrier

takde lar ku jalan sorang2 kan..

me and daya talked a lot last nite

when da rest left

and took their respective busses

she's my best gossip gurl ar

kte lei share ape saje

anithin & everythin eh

hehzx

hearts her so much too

understandin one

and ya skool has finally over

no mOre exams

no mOre projectLoads.

after total of 18 redbull classics

for the whole of last week

(plus minus one)

inclusive of shark redbull blue & black fury

till it has no mOre effects on me

am stoppin all dis drinks

cause its somekind of addiction to me last week

also stoppin to go mac

coz almost every time eirto tons

eirto heads to mac

so..

ENOUGH!~

of the bad habits

okie eirto?!~

LoOkin forward for graduation

and also chroma de runway?

shud i go or shud i not?

still fikirans babe

bukan pasal nak pakai baju ape tau

taPi if am still unsure of my graduation

do you think i will have the heart to enjoy myself?

no rite?!

but hopefully bad things wont happen uh eh

i will still graduate eventually

insya allah

its just the time will prove it.

and aft graduation pulak

real life gonna start..

shud i be workin

or shud i pursue wit wat i want to be..

but without money.

do you think the dreams can become reality?

only god noes the answers!~

|| lil' brighter than before ||

2008-02-17T15:48:00.004+08:00

eirto meetin daya later

thats for sure

gonna seek help from her

to view my codes

its kinda irritatin

the outcome still overwrites

instead of addin

to the current one

thou many trials & error

with multiple researches

has been done

but still..

WHY?!

ergh..!~

hopefully later

it can be solved

okie wait!

wat am i suppose to do now

aiyo

need to find a pix

for my gui background

lei lupe skejapan plak

instead now..

am bloggin

hohoho

aft my previous entry

and aft nites of not havin enough sleeps

tonning er.. toning?

multiple cans of redbull..

(until it has no effects on me already)

and talkin crapzies to myself

bein highly high n lowly low

i think

am smellin my graduation!~

insya allah

hopefully tml's presentation

turn out well..

and my gui works by tonite.

thanx especially to fylo

for focusin on the c++ codin

which is the most impt part of the mP.

maybe without her and her brainies

our mP will dOom

and we gonna be in 4.1

while our final member will be kicked out

and if tml's presentation

will be givin the light to my graduation..

am gonna treat my family BIG dinner!~

insya allah..

doakan ye.

and ouh no

tml actually ade inwt test

the project am done yest

and i've hand over to vic & zax

to finalised

but the test...

erm i haven even start studyin

if mangkok's dad givin green light

am gonna ton again

for da final time

because of skOol....

and the place will surely

be @ mac again.

and when all of these is completed

most probably i will stop goin mac

for sometime.

lol

all the best to me

and if da presentation succeeds tml...

am gonna treat my frenz..

bloppers? erm.. poPpers?!

the mini round ice cream sold in boxes

makenye cheers ade prOmo.

same goes 711 eh.

so my close peopzies

do pray for eirto

and you'll get free mini ice cream

specially from me, eirto.

heezx

insya allah...

rabbana aatina fiddunia hassanah

wafil akhitrati hassanah

wakina azabannar..

|| thinkin & thots ||

2008-02-15T00:07:00.007+08:00

b4 i forget

happy valentines' peops

erm accordin to my time

it'll be belated already

but its okie uh eh

didnt enjoy mine at all

with no one as usual

just wit myself

full of thinkin & thots

overloaded wit endless projectloads

again last nite

went mac drive thru

wit aini 'mangkoks'

one aim for sure

to finish up brochure.

after almost 5 hours

of completin dat freakie

cmsk4 'katek' tcher

punye mini project

wanna see da outcome?

cute tak?! cute tak??!!
cute kan..

its a last minute idea uh..

finally another one down

2 more to go

m-i-g-r-a-i-n-s!~

especially mP.

bile mau game?

but really..

seriously feels dat

my diploma is at serious stake

suddenly am unsure

of my own capabilities

kept thinkin & fikirans

about somethin

which am not so sure of myself

its the normal..

"What ifs?!~" & "Shud have.."

wateva okie.

just cant wait till next wed

when everythin will end

hopefully!~

with peace and secured future?

haizx

and suddenly it goes like this..

one aim as tertiary student

= grad wit a diploma

(within this very year)

one wish as a child; daughter

= gives betta livin to my family

(help to support my lil siss)

one dream eirto wants

= enrol for bike license uh

(but still after de parents blessin uh)

[and makenye eirto tak suke sgt tumpang org]

{lau dah ade sendri punye kan lei take time sendri bile mau geraks}

one hope for eirto's bdae

= 20pieces of candles on da cake!

(wanna wish each & every of it for everyone & myself)

one gatherin eirto lookin forward

= reunion wit ex-Ximinies

(dunno when, when? when uh?!)

one movie eirto wanna watch
= PS: i love you
(someOne, anyOne bring me will you)

one special somethin eirto want from someOne

= white rose!~ one enough uh

(nie ape kejadah plak nie)

jealous plak eirto

nampak gurls had flowers

with them for valentines

but theirs mostly red ones

but eirto dun really like dat one

bouquet pun tanak

too big and expensive kan?

one stalk enough ler

hekzx

and lastly..

one special moment eirto want to have

= watch the stars at nite again

again & again

(not just one but if can everynite[eh melampau!~], everyweek uh at least)

ouh... stars!~

coz eirto mau terbang ke awangan uh.

nie ape dah jadik ni anak nie..

|| panda eyes ||

2008-02-12T01:10:00.000+08:00

last nite
aft midnite
aini fetched me from home
its a last min decision
caused she was super high at dat time
and decided to bring me outz
me pimped on her lancer
wohoo!~
for the first time ever,
a fren actually tumpang me on her car
cool uh!~
and she brought me to mac
@ bedok resorvoir.
and i think this is the countless time
i head to mac
and bein a nite owl
to complete the projects!~

first i had redbull
den, oreo mcFlurry.
heex
and am super pissed
coz every mac dat i overnite so far
dun sell their new flavour
mudPie & uhh. erm.
yar!~
da new edition of mcFlurry.
bingitz.

okie whatever
i ton to fininsh up Mp report
dat requires 50-100 pages
and my goodness.
my members just knew
dat da report submission dues next morn @ 9
so we were like gosh!~
they were thinkin of turnin off sOon
and we like wanted to continue da report on anOther time
had to be cancelled immediately
and no nO
da report is due in like less den 8 hrs
from dat time.

at first i must say
i still can chill eh
padehal dalam hati dah tak tentu arah actually
accompany aini outs awhile to 711
and we bought shark energy drink
plus another latte for myself
gosh am really super crazy
had redbull and i add another shark

da nite was so stressed
and lucky fyz was online
at first he said he thinks he shud not be disturbin me
since i got like projectloads to complete
but i insisted dat he continue to prompt me
so dat i wont fall asleep

i went super weird too
coz i kept talkin to myself
and cursin everthin dat slows me down
and i even curse da skool!~
(people who saw me online will noe how crazy i sound dat nite)
and i end regrettin cursin da skool
coz i must say well dats hows skool life is rite
and ouh no..
skool will like end in less than 3 weeks time?
sobzx

da time hit almost 7 and me like still rushin to complete dat mp
aini left earlier coz his daddy needs da car
thinkin of askin aini to send me at da bustp at first
but i cant make it uh
coz there's still some parts of da report is not done by da time aini had to leave
so i head to skool wit the members aini left me wit

while waitin for da rest
i quickly finish up my last part
waited for fylo to come to check on da proposal
and waaalah!~
its done
and we rushed to engine skool aft printin for bindin
IT runs out of bindin service
and de library closin.
so it was super idiotic uh
am super tired and needs to rush to engine somemore
wahlauwei!~

thinkin of goin home to rest
is still a no no
coz i never bring da card reader
for fylo to work out and continue wit mp
brrrr..
so i went home got changed
and head back to skool
met hengy odw
and when our next bus come
suddenly i think i shud get another energy drink
gosh!~
so yar i had another redbull to keep me awake
and i went like super high eh!~
singin to myself!~
shakin shakin cam nak dancin when i reach da lab
haizx.
tak betul nie anak!~

while workin on my GUI
alhamdulillah
dgr dgr our final presentation will be next week
so hopefully i can rush to make it work
so another one down
2 1/2 more to go
before i sleep earlier
i must say i wasn dat tired
maybe thanx to de energy drinks i had
but gosh after seein my eyes sored!~
totally rabak uh
dah macam adek bradek panda!~
finally i realised i shud get some sleep
and now am finally up back to work
thanx to aini for volunteerin to wake me up
coz she disturbs my sleep uh just now
and gosh she had actually called me 10 times
before i finally wake up again
and i must say..
eirto-. was so tired!~ uh

|| starlight starbright ||

2008-02-09T18:18:00.000+08:00

heehzx

me really had fun last nite

really!~

when reach there

was totally tiring giler

coz fyz made me walk very far

and its like my feet ade terseliuh skit

ouch!~

reach there almost 1am.

waited for nisa at de d5 carpark.

den went to meet da rest;

fiq, lin, nas & man

at the beach

dorang tgh lepak ngn guitar tong

milik si fiq

kite borak-borak

dorang nyanyi nyanyi

fyz got changed and he was da only one beremdam pat dalam sea eh

kul 1 pagi!~

by almost 2 or 3

kte return chalet

heat up da bbq pit

we ate hotdogs, fish & crabbie

aft de stomachs filled

kte lepak pat depan chalet

bentang canvas

and we played UNO

nisa won first me second

den fiq, fiz and lastly nas.

man went to sleep

and lin watch us sambil chill n asap

paling kesian bile main UNO tu.. is nas

we saboed him

and he got to take 12-14 cards twice!~

de way he played pun kakkla

asal boleh tukar rule

lolzx.

so funny ar he.

when da clocks strike 5

nisa made her move back home.

since da people in da chalet starts to get up

me and da guys made our move to da beach again!~

kte duduk pat breakwaters

da front view was sweet ade ships and the lightins

and i must say da view of da sky melts my heart!~

if only i can take da scenery of da nite sky and show it to u guys!~

hehhzx
and am kinda jealous

coz lin got to witness few shootin stars

and i did not!~

at all!~

huhhh..

me fyz lin fiq

lie down on da breakwaters

to watch da nite sky above us.

sesungguhnye indah sungguh ciptaan tuhan!~

slowly when da morn takes over

da guys went wilder

wanna see wat they did

thanx to me for bein da cameraLady for dem!~

and slowly

we made our move..

leavin da footsteps behind

da breakwaters still inplace

and da sweet memories in mind

wished you were here!~

|| watchaa!~ ||

2008-02-08T01:17:00.000+08:00

heyho peapzies.

me just came back from work uh.

quite tired giler jugak ar.

nari kene campak pat ave 10 japz.

coz there not enough staff.

heard theres only 4 staff total

rabakz eh.

b4 jejak work,

met shad pat bedok ard 11

take visual studio cd from her.

den lazy to go back

me meet daya pat terminal 3.

waited for her almost 2 hours.

since its a last minute call up...

tak lei salahkan de jugak ar for her lateness.

we ate lunch together at mac

had these mcSpicy meal!

yum yum!~

i think this is my most largest meal since so long

mane tak dari tuari dapat gaji..

lum buy myself a delicious meal for myself.

makenye.. si eirto nie kekadang kedekut nak blanje diri sendri!

hehzzx!~

by 2 eirto n daya make a move.

need to head for work uh makenye.

haizx!~

takpe uh janji nari dpt extra alowance due to cny

yeay!~

but hor..

tadi gi work terpakse naik cab

coz eirto dah lambat giler!~

warghh..

so dat extra allowance down da drain gak makenye

mane tak kan.. cab skrg nie mahal giler..

wahlauweii..

and yar..

so lookin forward to tml's event.

goin fiq's family gatherin.

but first need to work till 11 at nite.

aiyoo camne nie.

tak penat ke si eirto nie eh

pepandai survive ar

yang penting...

eirto mau nengok..

"bintang di langit" lagik...

heeezx!~

|| hearts are all over the world tonite ||

2008-02-06T02:30:00.000+08:00

surreal serenity

calm and quiet nite.

enjoyin the breeze

of the peaceful nite

eir was down

eir was bored

eir decided

to destress one nite out

eir asked fyz

if he ever been to beach at nite

he said yesh

and asked why not we outs tonite

the nite was quiet

the nite was cold

one aim for sure

to watch the stars glow

however

the stars wasnt there

coz the red clouds was everywhere

am almost gave up

for not gettin to watch stars lite up

we shared lotsa stuff together. most things we talked was about life, experience and all. am kinda stunned with some of the things he shared with me. some personal of his that i think i find it quite early for me to know. and as a fren of his. i do accept whoever he is and whatever background he has. we shared bout our past. we talked bout some people who had colours and stained our life. and am still kinda surprise.. is he really da guy who enters my kindergarten life. coz he seems to forgot all about it and he does look cute in dat class picture eh. =!

one thing bout us.. if we we decided to go somewhere. we will decide it fast and will go out that very day or nite. i do find it weird. but so far its a fact lor. i like sharin stuff with him. coz i think he's a good listener to me. aft years of not meetin each other. almost 5 years i think. am glad i found back a fren like him. sometimes i think its good to have a close guy fren who you can talk with. so that the opposite sex fren of yours can share in his or her perpective point of

view isnt it?

how do you define a bestie?

sometimes i think i have one

but sometimes i think i have none

i do have many close ones

but which is actually is the bestest one?

the one that you can trust

and the one who always with you by your side

so who is your one?

who is the one?

we walked from end to end

hoping that the nite wont last

as the nite is gettin late

we have to catch the last bus ride

it wasnt a date at all.

no no for sure its not

its just another outin

between a gurl and a guyfren

da nite finally turn out to be wat i wanted

as the clouds move away

the starlite appears in some way

what a nice view to see

for a first timer like me =)

heart the sight of the nite

love the breeze so much

and hopefully

you can bring me there again alritex

-- ______--V

|| more overnites ||

2008-02-04T16:36:00.000+08:00

first of all.

i must say am a lousy blogger!!

gosh!~

actually been very busy wit stuff and all.

but i think i need to update b4 i forgot.

am happy finally i got my pay.

so am no more broke for now. hehs

wat happen few days back, had make me aware of somethin.

either direct or indirectly it doesnt matter.

i overnite at de mac very often last week.

to complete project loads for sure!~but end up lum finish lagik actually.

one done. a few more to go...

1st Feb: overnite3. went to amk drive thru mac wit aini. for da first time ever!~ its weird actually. but it does happen. its a last minute thingy actually. Fiz actually dropped by unexpectedly aft finish his work. penat giler de tu. coz lum balik since da nite b4. and yet de sanggup drop jugak kat mac. bukan buat pe pun. end up de played my psp. and i actually tak bebual wit him dat much. da worst part is but me and aini end up not doin our work eh. serious!~ we kept talkin and chattin. till de nite ends. and morn takes over. but i dont really regret not doin my work. coz i really had fun chattin wit her. she's just another unique gurl i met. and long-live to her. live life to da fullest okie mangkuk!~

31st Jan: overnite2.went kovan mac. to accompany Fiz study for his last paper. since i got two proposal to complete. i actually asked him if he's studyin out or not. coz i think if i dont do outside i'll sleep and wont touch it at all. i reached there first. as usual!~ Lin came to join too. and so does Fiq. dat nite was more merrier. hehs!~ but yang mepekz nye they kept leavin me alone for puff!~ chett. but its okie. guys are guys. let dem. suke kan nak mampos cepat. gi lar smoke lagik banyak2 ye. Lin left ard 3. da mac there was super noisy!~ macam sengaje tak lower down da radio nye volume eh. bingitz tau. when i finally sounded bout it. Fiz actually help to tell de mac people. barular dorang lower skit. but by den, its almost 5. barular da environment peaceful skit. serious!~ more focused jugak lar. had redbull earlier and it does kept me awake. thou i did yawn few times. ntah kul ba[e ustzh Nur online. i did chat wit her awhile. and she asked for my address. nak bagi kad jemputan makenye. hehs. i did smiled macam kambing! tersengih sorang2 and i think Fiz saw me smilin but i just ignored and did not tell him anythin. hehs! Fiz bought coffee from 711. and it does help to keep us stay longer. its almost 9 i think. den we left... am kinda happy coz i actually did finish up almost of da report. so da nite wasnt a waste at all... Fueeww!~

21st Jan: Overnite1. went kovan mac after so long. and i got lost at first. tot da mac was at de end. so i end up walkin a distance just to reach dat mac. aiyo. reached there and no one was there yet. Fiq came by. and i think dat mac its near to his home dats why Fiz recommended dat place. bile plak will be near my place eh? erm. dat nite was a tirin nite i must say. i start of wit entre. a bit only. by almost 4 i was super sleepy. and i did slept until almost 6 plus. bad gurl! never do work eh. si Fiq actually return home to shower. and i got two bodyguards who accompanied home. coz Fiq thinks that he shud head to skool. afraid dat he might overslept. so i guess it was da first time he head to skool dat early. and Fiz actually followed him to skool. so ya, they took da longer route. from kovan to sengkang, den punggol pass pasir ris. and finally reach Tp.

|| stressfool week! ||

2008-01-21T17:44:00.000+08:00

Its been some time since I last update my blog. Ermm, let me flash back some of the things happened few days back...

19 Jan: Head to school alone. Don't know for what lar. Bring lappie & work uni along. Tot nak kene transfer @ ave10 for the day since samk dah ade orang while ave10 lack of staff in the end my boss don't need me. Takpe de. Followin week I don't wanna work. Gi mampos ar. When she needs me, she beg like mad. I don't care takde duit pun takpe. Bingitz tau.

So I head back home to rest den still I come @ my workplace. Tiana resignin. Its her 2nd last day of work and I must see her. When I reached work, so many stuff had happened to the store. Actually not the store ar its the people there. So many unexpected things happen when am not workin. After hearin so many stuff, I feel like kickin somebody's toot lar. Geram betul!~ Whateva it is... I must not let myself into his trap and he will never get me at all. am not stupid lar eh!~

Then aft that, Fiz dropped by again. Memang janji pun. Kite nak pi Mac drive-thru pat amk sane; to accompany him study. And I myself need to settle down and start wit other projects that due soon. The great thing Lin dropped by too! So the more the merrier isn't it? Had connection problems wit my lappie. Dah nak kene hantar tembak makenye. End up I give up eh! Si Fiz end up tak blaja banyak jugak eh. Materials tak cukup lar. And funny part is, Lin lupe bring his plug for his lappie. hahks. But lucky battery nye masih alive unlike mine! hehks. Lau takde plug tak gune bawa itu lappie eh. Me had oreo mcFlurry again and the guys beli breakfast mereka. But I must highlight here... Lin nye Big Breakfast include jam?! Betul ke makan roti, telurand burger with jam?! kakkla sei. They played my Psp while waitin for my bus to start its operation. They played dis Intelligent Practical game. Gundu betul sei diorang. But aft a while they get to hang on wit the game. Lei tahan jugaklar si Lin to wit the game. And Fiz was super bored agaknye; bebual sendiri, nyanyi nyanyi lar.. ape jek de tu.

When the clock strike 6 we made our move. Lin offered me to send me back home. I must say tak berani sei. Thou he said he tumpang kan Fiq before.. Tapi mane tau me naik skali tumbang jugak phantom nye itu. Selama nie only my dad sahaje lar me pernah tumpang. Lau others lum lagik.. Unless... hmmm.. So, its been really a stressful week for me I must say. REALLY!~ But the nite outz @ mac cheered me up some how lar eh... hehe!~

Interim day!~

18 Jan: Woke up early! need to send baby Husna to kindergarten!~ Presentation is like in few hours time. And am still like blur. Lucky few more buttons worked at very last min. But in the end kene hentam jugak from Evaluator rabak-rabak eh. Too stress that I don't feel like eatin and I actually heret Fylo & Daya follow me jalan kaki from Tp bustp to my 27 bustp! Gosh!~

Den met Faz pat HM. Need to return his thumby back makenye. Bebual ngn de pat mac japz. And I ate dis mudpie oreo mcFlurry. yummy!~ never eat real food whole day in the end makan ice cream. Baguskan si eirto nie. hmphh.

The whole of last week was stress wit projects. Interim coming up! and my project is like down down the drain. Kept gettin home very late. Went home almost like aft 8 everyday from school. Haixx very tiring week indeed!~ Super de duper tired lor. and ya, dalam kite sedang bersusahan ade jugak lar my bestie nie sakit rupenye. Cian de!~

17 Jan: Mummy nye ai request me to follow her daughter home. Scared de pitam lagik macam tuari ketika ianya berlaku di tamp interchange. Since dapat taxi fare free makenye, ape salahnye ku menemani ai pulang bersama-sama juge Dinie yang kebetulan tinggal di area north bersama ai. While in the taxi, den I realise how much time I've not been spendin wit her. Discussed and shared lotsa story wit her, membiarkan si Dinie sorang-sorang di depan bersama uncle taxi. heh!

Slept quiet late that nite. So de duper stress need to prepare the slides for interim. si Fiz pm me. He just came back from work and he need to prepare for exams that will held next week. He was superbly tired too but he wants to study. So I was like volunteer myself to wake him up @ 2a.m. But in the end he slept back eh! Tak blaja!~

And lastly it go like this...

12 Jan: Worked with kak mandee. Fiz dropped by to jengok me @ work japz. We chatted outside my workplace. Lei duduk pat tepi tangga macam tak keje gitu. Borak-borak japz. He also mentioned one of his fren met an accident on his first day of work wit Canadian Pizza few days back and I was like "So de okie?". And was shocked Fiz told me he actually passed away. hmm. Very sad to hear that actually. And ya, salam takziah to the family. Buat mu Zaid, Semoga tuhan mencucuri rahmat, Amin.

Well, I must say... dunia ini hanya sementara. Ntah bila tibanya hari kita nanti. Ntah esok atau lusa. Dimana sahaja.. hendaklah kita sentiasa mengingatinya dan sentiasa membuat amalam suruhannya...

me myself n i

2008-01-10T16:27:00.000+08:00

am here again to update my bloggie!
hee!~
wanna update ma pazzion list here!
its new year's today for the islamic calendar.
so happy maal hijrah 1429!
my new year yesterday turns out to be betta.
managed to rush home 10 mins b4 maghrib.
was glad my family actually gathered and we did doa together.
so i guess, fireworks ain't important somehow!
lol!~

1. graduate from Tp. as a final year student in poly, surely i want to graduate from my campus asap. but for sure, am gonna miss my school!~

2. get into a culinary academy? doesn't have to be shatec or sunrice anymore for now. i don't have enough money to apply them. but maybe i can attain short courses that will get me to the type of industry i wanna work in for life!~

3. gemPlus zen creative mp3. i think i need one to entertain myself. hope to get it real soon. hopefully next month. or when my sis pay her 150 debt back to me?

4. i need a runnin shoes. and i really need one. infact i guess i need a good one. (so choosy lar plak). i need to do workouts. or i'll turn sick. and i have to buy next month!~

5. n76! i loike that nokia phone so much. coz of the sleeq feature it has. i read somewhere that the design actually being copied from the motorola previous design. i want to have the red one. but am sure i'll end up gettin the black one instead. for sure!~

6. move out. my family and i really need to start afresh in a new home, in a new environment, in a new estate. need to leave that home that gave lotsa beautiful memories but mostly the bad ones. hmm.

7. get a license! my mummy bands me from takin riding license. but i don't care!~ i'll still try to persuade her. but still, i wont apply unless my parents approve me of gettin one. if not. ya have to take drivin instead lor.

8. loose weight! every girl in this world may not be satisfy with their current looks. and so does me. but i do aim this for every year. i must say it does starts well at first, but unfortunately i gained back what i've loose at the end of the year. so for this year, i'll hope and am gonna strive to the end. =) hopefully!~

9. get a boyfriend?! this does not really applies to me at this moment. actually i don't need one for now. i just wish to have one. am sure everyone loves to be loved isn't it?

10. have a happy family! has always wish to be better together forever. =)

erm. i think thats it!~ for now.

7Teen Ways To Change Life.

2008-01-07T00:18:00.000+08:00

Okie its 2nd week of the year. I've been superbly tired with endless projects and ya more work. For next week, I've request lesser workin time coz I need to focus almost 90% of weekdays with projects! So hope my request I've written on the comms book last nite will be taken into considerations and hope there will be no GANGUAN from my boss througout my school time. And ya, before I forgot. Its someOne's birthday again and let me highlight here...

happy 20th birthday Hengy!!!

So, get back to my post title. I copied from one of the teen magazine I read when I was at work and let me share with you guys. For those who have not settle down '08 like me, let me give ya all some tips. Hope it benefits you and myself. Coz startin the new year late its not harm at all isn't it?

1.Write a Passion List. I guess this is some sort of writtin your new year's resolution? Do at least scribble down 10 things you wanna achieve for this year. I have some at mind but I'll update it in my next post when time comes. heh!

2. Get Up an Hour Client. erm.. Waking up an hour earlier makes lotsa different, isn't it. So you won't be rushin out wit your hair wet, tummy growlin and feet wit mismatch flip-flops? and have time dressin up wit cool outfit! Well for this I need to really improve myself cause I tend to rush when am gettin late especially when am super late!

3. Be Original. Don't copy someone else's style. Give yourself a unique look that will be different for others so that people will always remember you by. For this I guess I have to work out well. Not to make everyone notice me. But, to feel that am appearin confidently when am in front of others.

4. Compile Your OST. By doin this I guess will add colours to what you are listenin. Maybe try out other genre of music that will entertain you through youre journey. and ya look out for new hit songs on radio!

5. Get a Pet. erm. I don't think I need one for now. Too busy with projects and work. Maybe after graduation I'll consider gettin one. heh!

6. Create a Responsibilities album. I don't really get this part. It wrote somethin like. What You See, You Can Be! Erm. Maybe for example I wanna graduate soon and hopefuly it'll come true. So I have to paste somethin to remind me that I can do thou theres many things I have to go through? Is it like that?

7. Get Centred. This part is somethin like destressed yourself. Like what I always need it most of the time. Its super easy actually. Just close your eyes and meditate. Or just get someOne to talk with ya.

8. Volunteer for a Cause. Givin some of your time to help others? It'll be great. I manage to donate blood for the first time. Hopefully I'll do it again this year. Lookin forward if there's any donation blood drive again in school!

9. Try This: Get-Happy Trick. I really need this! Its more of participatin sports like runnin, cyclin and etc. Am goin swimmin real soon. ( i hope) and ya am saving to buy a sports shoes. hah! really need to get work outs. too many flabbys in me!

10. Choose the Company. You Keep. Probably after graduation then, this will be important to me. Must search the one I really wish commit then I'll be enjoy workin wit one.

11. Set Aside a Dream Fund. Have been startin it since I first got my Part-Time job. Sometimes the saves increases but most of time decreases. =! I think I need to separate into different account so I won't touch it. erm. maybe I'll do it next month after my savings hits 500 bucks again!

12. Don't Skip BreakFast. Having healthy meals makes you think better all the way! But if I don't use to having breakfast.. how eh? My mummy don't seem to prepare one for me. It does not matter. Maybe by improvin point 2 mentioned earlier, I can prepare one for myself? hmm.

13. Laugh More. I guess I need this a lot. I am doin it each time I need my friends. But I guess I have to do it more.. Just to destress myself more. heh!

14. Market your Skills. Turn your hobby/interest into Business! Well, this can be done if only I have enough funds. Maybe in 2 years time? hmm.

15. Spend More Time with Mum & Dad. I did treat just my parents last year. I should do it more often after I have a stable job (maybe). Sittin with them watchin TV is also a fun activity to do.

16. Become more Interesting. Find your root? Pick up a new language? Maybe learn arabic language? So I can teach my lil sis who is now studyin at madrasah.. Jangan nanti die yang ajar gue plak!~ The result: Smarter You!

17. Drink More Water. Chug with mineral water! Has no sugar nor fat.! I have always one bottle bag. But sometimes I do feel I have not drink enough! hee.

After listin these.. I guess it'll be more fun to see the change of you? Everyone do hope to be better and so does me! =)

Not A Good Start!~

2008-01-03T22:22:00.000+08:00

Its been a difficult start of the year for me! Haix! During New Year eve i worked in the afternoon shift from 5-11. When I reached work, the worst part is my boss told me i need to go Khatib instead as there is no staff! I must say hello its not my problem. And the double worst part is she said i'll be workin the next mornin too (7-3). What the toot lar! So equals to No Fireworks lor!~ Idiot. Left work almost 2330 and when I am about to reach home, walkin near to block, and ya I heard shoutins from neighbours.. 7-6-5-4-3-2-1... Okie fine whatever okie! I don't really mind the countdown its just that I really want to watch the Fireworks lar! Its been a tiring term holiday for me by workin. And when am like about to destress myself and watch a beautiful form of art. Am doomed!~ And worst part is am back to workin! Super Idiot!~

Two weeks of term holiday has over. So what have I gained?! Been workin like almost everyday and goin skool almost at every opportunities. Proposal to complete. Projects to think of! And yar!~ Received this Warning Letter for MP! Idiot! I think we are the first group to receive it. See! Everythin is not doin well this new year! And till today... My group members and I are still thinkin on how to do it. I can't be stuck with graduation with just not completin MP! It'll be a disaster! Help people help!

And ya.. am totally broke! Without cash seems helpless! Loaned 10 bucks from Mummy this week. And ya gettin my pay this month in like left few hours from now! Wuhoo.. But still Ouh no! Its super less for me to spend this month. Worked only like 6 days since last cut off date. So i'll be like super broke again in 2 weeks from now..

I missed doin things soOoo much like: 1. watchin movies in theatre! Wanted to watch alvin & chipmunks but no one seems to be free to go with me. But when there is I have no time to watch with them! haixx! 2. swimming! Gosh! Last gone swimmin like months ago I think around October '07. Splashy splashy splash splash! I really want to go for a swim but my free time is like too occupied with school, work and more work! Lastly, 3. Shopping! I need someOne to accompany for shoppin! I did went to Bugis & Far East on X'mas eve. And gosh those places are flooded with aliens especially Bugis! And yet, I end up not gettin what I want because I need to head for work as theres this new staff went missin! Its a last minute call-up thingy and I don't know why I said YESH to WORK?!!! And ya in the end my life is stuck at work! Again!

All my treasured time has been replaced by workin! And I think this new year I need to start sayin No no and ya NO!! I just need some time for myself. Time goin out with friends. Its like I need time to go out with ecki! Need to find time where me, idan, shuk, qama and irwan can gather and have our reunion lunch or dinner together! And ya finally more treasure time I need is for my family, Especially my mummy and the bratzx! Pity my mummy need to prepare stuff for their first time ever in primary school and kindergarten! Haix.. So fast they have grown and now even Husna is schoolin! See.. time flies so fast! Still remember few years back when my mummy told me she's pregnant again. Warghh.. And now these two bratzx are startin to know what life is all about.. and not just play with toys and watchin tv!

Hope that days to come will be a better life for me to endeur. Am startin to get tired of everythin. Although new year has over, yet I have not start afresh yet! And hopefully things will work out better for me. And ya Faz is right!~ I need to schedule my time well. And I think I really need it. =!

GoodBye 2007!~

2008-01-01T22:36:00.000+08:00

Heyho! Its the first Posting in my Life and first of the Year! Before i start with anything, Let me wish my Bestie..

HAPPY 20th Burfday deaRie Daya!!!

Wished this mornin and wishin her again here! Its finally the end of teenage year for the dragon babies! And ouh no!~ am turnin another year older too, sOon! Gosh. Things can happen so fast before you could realise anythin. haiz! Okei dearie daya.. Just wait ur bdae prezzie from us okie.

I used to wrote a diary last year. Was so enthu writin it at first but then started to I realise i have no time and became lazy to update. Haix!!!

Okie. Let me recap few things happen in my life last year!...

First. Lost my phone moto V3x before chi new year and had replacement moto Z3 and am still using it now. Its was my second time loosin a phone in malaysia! due to my own carelessness of coz! stupid eirto! sometimes i feel so 'serik' of loosin stuff and all but its just me! careLess eirto-. can't resist of misplacin stuff!

Then. i got a job in OCBC as my attachment! wow! damn big pay for the 1st time in my entire life. Padehal its like only 600plus! But seriously, i have never earned more than dat. At first i was supposed to be attached to NTU but however kana rejected! Damn pissed and worried. Turn out to be damn happy liao. My dept was superbly small. Consider daya's dept was more fun place with fun people mine. So small yet many politics! But am glad i met Ivan my partner during the attachment. He is like the 2nd closest guy after my aBang in Tp. After some time, theres contract staff comin in. There are the undergrades from SIM: Lily, Melvin, Dewei and oOpzx i forgot his name. Padehal he is the most cutest one! lolzx. Without this people during my attachment I would not have enjoyed myself aside with the works piling after one another! But i must say, the dept i was assigned was 'horrigible' with works that many don't even know such things exists to be done; one will be... to be jailed inside the cage(vault) to search for documents!

Third. The most happenin of the year!!! Went for a vacation in KL, Malaysia with dearie Daya n FyLo on our own! Woohoo! The most daring thing i have done. But am more to the 'follower' type. The others know the places better than me. Thanx to the map! We took a premium bus up to KL, booked hotel at Radius near Bukit Bintang, went KLCC, Lot 10, Mines Shopping Centre, Bukit Bintang Mall and etc. We lotsa crapz there; Pizza Hut, Dunkin Donuts, A&W, and for the first time.. 'halal' sushi. I don't really spent lotsa stuff. I don't really know what to buy. Too spoilt for choice maybe. Or just 'tak berkenan'. But am happy i bought an Espirit handbag for my mummy! For myself; a Projectshop sling bag! Projectshop cardholder! Keychain made of twirled metal! and ya more souvenirs for friends.

Lastly, Finally back to school again as a final student of Tp! Gosh! Am gonna miss Tp badly so sOon! But I must highlight that I have not been spending most of the free utilities found in Tp. Like the gym, Watch movies in the Library, Playing pool and etc etc... Wasted isn't it. Being a senior means MORE project loads, MORE things to focussed on! Equals LESS time to fool around and LESSer time to check out on cute guys. haix. blueks!

New gadgets i bought last year was 1. MotoRizr Z3 to replace the lost phone! 2. A black PSP with my hard earn after working @ OCBC. 3.This OSIM messager to message myself to release stress or any pain. Ya, thats it. So little stuff yet so useful for myself. Hopeully this year i get to save up and buy more stuff to keep me company?

Best '07 moments was that and still countin.. The bond between my friends and I are gettin closer! I Loik3! Am so glad and thankfully to god for meetin these people and be part of my Life!..

1. To Nurul ai'! Thanx for bein my bestie! I've always enjoyed bein with you. Thou we seldom meet, seldom keep in touch, seldom contact but am glad i found you. Anythin just share with me okie. Your problem is my problem. Your joys is mine too. Am so happy i found YOU darlin!

2. To Daya, FyLo & shaD! Thanx for bein with me endeurin in Tp Life! We've been ups and downs together. Marah merajuk sayang pujuk between us tak pernah luput. Whatever it is korang benar benar colours up my Life! Sayang korang!

3. To Mar My only secondary school malay fren who is sincere to be my fren. Thou we were not in the same stream, not in the similar school, but am glad you never treat me differently. So sorry if I merely had time to spend with you. But our treasured time together will never be erased in my Life! Do take very good care of urself and don't be naughty naughty. Am just worried for you tau!

4. To Liyi, Liwen, Hengy I love you guys to bits! My closest cliques from secondary school. Am so honoured and touched you guys still keep me as ur friend. Hope we meet again alritex! Do keep in touch always!~ =)

5. To Kak Ayu, Kak Mandee & Tiana Korangs rocks my workin Life @ =) Being the only one left for so long.. Thanx for joinin samk 559!!! Appreciates lotsa! Thanx for bein a wonderful jie jies to me!

6. Lastly, To Keem, Faz, Fisah, Raudhah, Su, Fadh, Fyz, Fiq, Lin, Nas, Tia, Zam, Nisa. My ex madrasah cliques!!!! Korang memang best giler! You guys are my best outing friends I've ever had. May we meet up for more events and you guys are the music in me! Muackss!!!

Another year has past. So many things I've been through. Can be said another year I endeured, the more wilder I have been; Be home @ late nights, naughtier @ workplace, Overnights. I've always wished to be a better person. Yet I end up doin stupid things. Made stupid decisions!~

Well, what have pass is past. Hopefully this new year, i'll endeure with more happiness and fun with the people surround me. Find a better job after graduation or maybe enroll into a course that i really want. May '08 and ongoin years be a success to me as

a best daughter, a good friend and maybe a loyal gurlfren!

cheers! =)